I can’t cope

It’s usually better but there isn’t much surf. The waves crash against the rocks and the splash is huge @MissGremlin.

The dogs just ran all over the rocks. Pix climbed rocks I didn’t think she would get over. I did have to carry her on the path back as her breathing was realy bad and we put an ice pack on her when we got back to the car.

Im sitting on the beach in the beautiful sun. There isn’t many waves but the water is nice and I just float over the little waves. This is just what I need right now.

Im sorry you didn’t get much rest. You certainly need it. I find sleep good as I usually forget everything and unusually don’t wake up. I am looking forward to Friday morning when I can hopefully sleep in a little.

@Captain24 awww Pix sounds like she was having such a good time. It looks and sounds like a perfect place and I'm so glad you got to be there today ❤️.

Sleep would be nice but it seems to avoid me 😂. Hoping come Friday you can get a nice sleep in ☺️

It’s the place that I connect with mum the best @MissGremlin. I can’t say that about much. It’s actually really nice. We went to another part where mum and I saw whales last time we were here.

The beach right now is beautiful. I’m loving it. It is the best I have felt in a while. All the feelings I’ve been having are still all there but at least I can see something good.

We are going for fish and chips tonight so hopefully today will be a good day. Mum was thinking of inviting my brother but I asked her not to or if she wanted to me and the dogs could sit at another table. She decided that we would have to pay for him and his ex/partner if he came and it makes it so much more expensive. Plus they order extra for their dog.

So far today is panning out to be an okish day. As ok as I can do right now.

Have you ever tried melatonin? You can get it over the counter and I don’t think it should cause any of the previous problems you have had. It didn’t work for me but maybe it’s something you could think about. It’s just a suggestion and if I am in the wrong please say so.

Dinner was good. We had a good view. But my okish day went down hill. Mum complained about the food. Her dog wouldn’t eat so she yelled at her. We went for a walk and mum was just nasty.

A big dog off the lead came rushing over to us while we were walking. Pix was in the pram and Jett and Keiko were walking. The big dog put its head in Pix’s pram and scared her and Pix had really laboured breathing and I was really scary. Keiko fell at my feet with fear of the dog and I had to pick her up. Jett ran behind mom scared as well. The guy that owned the dog said it was ok it was friendly. I yelled at him that doesn’t matter my dogs are scared. He couldn’t even get the dog to come away from us.

I guess I should have known I couldn’t get a whole day. It’s like everything has come crashing down again. It has me thinking about stuff. What can I do. Riding this out is hard. Even on holidays.

@Captain24 i haven't had a chance to catch up on your other post yet sweet. But i just read this one and I'm sorry to hear that things have come crashing down. Know that I'm sitting with you sweetheart and sending you hugs ❤️

I forgot to post a picture of my view

Thank you @MissGremlin. It’s ok I know you have a lot on yourself. I did just post pictures that are nice. Just a good post for the night.

Thanks for sharing some of your experiences re: your mum @Captain24. I can really sense how exhausting it is for you to have to try to manage her emotions on top of your own. I'll re-recommend that book I was harpiong on about a lil while back - 'Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents', it could be a really good read for you 💜

Aww that sucks about that person and their dog!! Just because your dog is friendly doesn't mean that all other dogs will be ok around em!! I hope Pix, Jett, and Keiko are ok!! And I hope you are taking it easy too hun, even with your mum in a mood 🥺

Have been absolutely loving the pics!! What an absolutely stunning view! And your lil fuzzballs look like they're having such a fab time 😍

@Captain24 that's why I haven't really replied to a few posts on the forums yet cos they are long and all a bit too much right now. But I'll get around to them later.

I can't wait to see the pics once they are up ☺️

Hey @Jynx

I just tagged you in a post from last night. It was really bad. I was crying, sobbing even, I cried in front of my mum.

I need to look for it. Mum has been reasonably gentle since last night. Just ruined it tonight. She has been good since we got back though.

They are having an awesome time. They are loving it but all three are so tired! Pix has the most stamina though!

How are you?