I can’t cope

Just got home from walking the dogs @tyme . I’m not sure you are still around?

Ove never done it before. I haven’t spent any been so tired all day! Hoping I sleep tonight without them though. I am extremely tired though. Lots of time in the sun and lots of masking.

Im a little confused.. I’m thinking you are thinking of the beach with my friend? I haven’t spent any time with mum alone?

Yes my brother is still with her. They have been invited but he has only asked what mum was thinking of doing? Not that he will come or when? The waiting around and not being able to plan anything is frustrating. He is just like my parents and only thinks of himself. An example of my parents not thinking of me. Dad picked up their drink bottles to take out with us. He had to move mine to get to them. Left mine there while I put the leads on ALL dogs.

Im just sitting on the lounge trying to stay awake!

This is a couple from tonight.

I’m really tired so I’m going to head to bed.

Sorry I haven’t been much support. I’m just not a good person and I’m struggling and with staying awake and seem to be busy most of the time.

Sorry @tyme. I seem to keep missing you too. I’m really sorry for that as well. Hopefully things will align soon, but I also know that you are really busy.

I’ve been awake since 5:30. I have put everyone’s washing on. Mum and dad have gone for their walk so I’ve been able to manage getting a smoke in. Sorry I have been talking about that a lot but it’s on my mind so much as it’s hard while I’m having trouble getting them. It’s just adding to the stress.

I’ve been having an okish time. Really really tired from being out all morning and then beach all afternoon. Plus constant making is such hard work. We have done things though. Being in the sun so much is helping me. The sun is a really good thing for me.

I have been missing being on here though but I haven’t really had much time. Busy all day and in bed by 9 of a night. I can’t stay up any later. I’m just too exhausted.

I have been forgetting my adhd meds as well though. We aren’t anywhere where I can take them when they are due. I might put a remind in my phone and see if that helps. Maybe it’ll help lessen the noise in my head.

I hope everyone is coping as well as they can be. I am thinking of you all. Especially when I’m at the beach. Wishing you all could get the reprieve I have been feeling there. Today may be a little different without my friend there but at least it will be alone time.

I haven’t been reading along and I really should find sometime to catch up on things. I feel incredibly guilty.

Thinking of you all @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself @Flutterbug9

For those who want to know what I do for work.

Here is a completely none identifying photo, it’s a random one of Facebook and I have no idea where it was taken but it looks like the USA by the picture of the bus.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, well done for getting everyone's washing on. I'm glad you got a smoke in, can't even imagine how hard it is to not be able to have one when you need at the moment.

I'm glad you have been having an okayish time and it definitely is exhausting having to mask constantly. I'm not surprised that come 9pm you are ready for bed with doing so much during the day, but it sounds good to be able to get some quality rest after a long day.

Oh no to not being able to take your adhd meds, hopefully setting an alarm will help.

I'm so glad that you are getting some reprieve at the moment especially when you get to go to the beach for walks. Hope you have a lovely day sweetheart and please try to not feel guilty, we are all happy for you that you are having this time for yourself ❤️.

Sending you love and hugs ❤️

I’ve also now swept and washed the floors, swept the sand out of the garage and off the back deck. @MissGremlin. So that feels good.

Hows things sitting with you? I know it’s been really hard and I totally hear that. Of second by second is all you can do then I’m here thinking of you.

@Captain24 well done sweet, you've done so well ❤️.

Things have been hard and it's very much second by second but I'm trying to keep pushing through. Thankyou sweetheart ❤️.

@Captain24 thabk yoy for the update 😊🥰 and it is totally fine to not be online often (or at all, if that were what you wanted). I dont believe you have any reason to need to apologise or feel guilt. I know this doesnt take the feelings away, but i'm happy to outright state that i dont think you have anything to be guilty of! 😊

"Sorry I haven’t been much support. I’m just not a good person and I’m struggling and with staying awake and seem to be busy most of the time. "

Comment caught my eye for the same reason. I reckon there are a few things being conflated here (ie, things unrelated that are being confused as related 😉).

1. Not being able to be much support to others.

2. Being busy and tired.

3. Not being a good person.

1 & 2 -- totally normal, we all have this at times. And for some of us it may even be all the time chronically! .... but i dont think either of those things mean someone "isn't a good person". 🤔 so i'm going to lovingly and supportively challenge this association between those things 😋🥰🤗🤗🤗🤗 as a caring friend who reckons you ARE a good person! A good person who is going through a super rough and hard patch of life!

Loved the photos of the dogs and the beach 🥰. They look so happy.

Wow. That photo is amazing of the truck and bus. I am so glad the bus is there as scale 😮😮😮😮. I knew the biggest tyres in the world were made for mining trucks, but that thing is a monster size of a truck!!! 😮

How big are the ones you drive compared to this?

It must take A LOT of skill and awareness to drive something so super huge!

Hey @Captain24 ,

Hope you are feeling better at the moment. It sounds like there have been so many changes in terms of not being able to smoking, being out all day, not taking ADHD meds at the set time! I reckon my body will go a little haywire too!

Sounds like you need a holiday from a holiday lol!

No stress at all if you haven't been on as much. We are still getting each others' posts whenever we are available - that's the benefit of forums 🙂

What's on the itinerary today? What time are you seeing your bro?

Take care, and speak soon!

I’ve just gotten down to the beach @tyme

This morning has been challenging. Really challenging.

I remember to take my meds at lunchtime, a little bit late but at least I’ve taken them! Hoping they help with being so tired.

I will most definitely need a rest when I get home. We have done a lot of walking and being out. While I don’t want to leave the beach home alone is sounding good!

Today we went to that markets and walked over to a hill mum wanted to do. So that was nice. Had lunch on the waterfront, mums dog didn’t eat lunch so she got into trouble and mum kept jerking her lead getting back to the car. Just cruel. I went to get the washing off the line and it’s not dry so hopefully dad will get it off instead of just sitting on his arse or standing in the way!

Im not sure what is going on with bro. He wanted to have dinner near another waterfront but there is nowhere nearby to get food! Mum and I just want to do it where we are staying but he doesn’t want to. Apparently him and his girlfriend aren’t together but she is coming anyway. She wanted to bring her son but we told her Jett bites kids. I don’t want a 2 year old hanging around.

Whats been happening for you?