I can’t cope

@Captain24 i hope you can get some much needed rest sweet.

Sending you so much love and hugs ❤️.

@Captain24 sleep well my friend. May it be peaceful.

Awww! The photos are so cute @Captain24 !

I love the sunset.

I was sorta laughing because Pix is the only one off leash... the other 2? Well.... that says a lot lol.

I'm glad to hear Pix cooled down. How stressful that you always have to have a contingency plan for Pix. Do you think it gets worse as she ages?

Go easy on yourself. One new thing I learnt today - you have never let your family know you smoke! Do you think this is adding to how you feel?

Also, deep down, do you think they actually know?

Rest up if you are resting now. I'll wait to hear from you.

@Captain24 not being the same doesn't automatically mean it will be worse, just different! When are you thinking of going?

Penguins!! OMG so cuuuute!! But your pups in their element at the beach? EVEN CUTER 😍 Their little faces, I can't!!

TY for sharing hun. Also, you're not letting anyone down by prioritising your need for rest! We care about you and want you to feel like you can put your needs first, and not feel like it's an obligation to always be around. You are also totally allowed to complain, even if you're on holiday!

Hope you've been able to get some decent rest, and have a chill day ahead of you tomorrow. Catch you soon 💜

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Helloooo @Captain24,

How are things feeling for you this week? 🫶

I am really glad I was able to be there for you the other night, and it always makes me smile to know that Pix and Jett are there for you when you're needing soothing. 🥰

When is your next appointment with your therapist?

They are really happy @AlwaysMyself. They love being on holidays and doing new things.

I went to be with my weighted plushie. The dogs were in and out of my room waiting for treats off mum.

Pix did wake me up twice during the night to go out to the toilet!

Today has been okish. It’s a bit warm to have the dogs do much. I’m about to get ready to head down to the beach. My friend should be here by 3 which is good because I am able to have some time alone! I’m struggling with being around mum and dad. The way they speak to each other is pretty bad. But they act like children. Dad does nothing but sit on Facebook or read the newspaper. He does do the driving but doesn’t actually think to look at the traffic around him but he can tell you what colour shirt some guy was wearing on the foot path.

At least mum is happy with me as I have helped do the dishes everytime

Sorry about that.

Its nearly smoke time!! I don’t usually talk about smoking on the forums. I usually keep it to myself.

Thanks @MissGremlin. I did get some sleep except for the dogs coming in and out and Pix needing th go to the toilet twice during the night.

I hope you were able to get a little bit of rest.

It was a reasonable drive @tyme. It did get ridiculously hot for Pix in the car though. I was worried about her when we got here. I put an ice pack on her belly. But there is air con here and tiles so she could cool down quickly. I have a lot of things sorted ready for Pix if she needs. We are very careful with her. Last night at the beach her breathing was really laboured but then we stopped and talked to people we know that use to live in my town. She had time to rest and reset so she could keep going. She did spend a lot of time in the water though so that kept her cool. I think she has been like this but since she nearly died we are keeping a much closer eye on her and yes it will get worse with age. Mum is closely watching her dog as she is prone to heat stroke too!

That made me giggle thinking of her being so tired from trying to be ‘good’

The sunsets are a lot better than that so I’m hoping we get a couple of good ones. Yes Pix is the only one that is trusted! Keiko wanted to run up a sand dune so I had to go with her holding the lead. She wasn’t trusted to come back down! Their beach leads are 15 metres long! That we they are reasonably free but under control at the same time.

I think they probably do know. But I am not dealing with them commenting, then having a go at me, them abusing me, them judging me, them belittling me!

It does make it a little harder when I’m already struggling. I need that release and comfort. But it is what it is.

They are causing me some issues, I did write in another post about them, I’m trying my hardest to not let it get to me. I am having enough trouble with myself than having to take more on.

Im hoping I will be around tonight @tyme. I’m really sorry I couldn’t do last night.

I know it will be different, I just need to keep an open mind. My psych has told me that I do have to go and give it a go. @Jynx. I’m not sure when I’ll go. I have to wait and see what survives I need and when. Mums comment today was the surgeries are life or death, that other place isn’t! If only she knew! I actually see my gyno next Friday and I’m scared about what is next. But worry about if then.

The are so happy! All three love it here. I do enjoy seeing them happy though.

I am struggling a little bit but I am really trying. I’m just about to go to the beach for some alone time before my friend gets there! Im sorry I need rest last night but it is really taking a lot out of me to try and mask through a whole day.

Hopefully I’ll be around tonight but you aren’t on until really late these days. I’m hoping I’ll see you

Hey @AuntGlow

Things haven’t really been much better. Thanks for helping me out though. It is a really big struggle, one that I can’t see a way out of.

I saw my psych on Wednesday and she wants to refer me to community mental health for added support. She is really concerned about me. I’m trying my best but I’m just shutdown. I see her again in 2 weeks. Also the hospital I go to is closing down!

I am currently on holidays and I’m about to head to the beach. That way I have a little bit of me time before my friend turns up.

How are you?