I can’t cope

That’s priceless @Bow

It did calm his anxiety. He could actually lay down instead of sitting up and panting stressed the whole way. It didn’t zonk him out though. He still stayed the same Jett just less stressed. So it was good. I’ll start him on the daily ones when we get back.

How are you feeling today after your op yesterday?

We are here and unpacked. Mum and dad have gone grocery shopping. I am hanging for a smoke but I don’t smoke around them and have never admitted to it with them. So until I go to the beach on my own I have to go cold turkey. Don’t need the shame or the judgment or the abuse.

Im hoping they come home soon and we have an early dinner as I want to take Pix to the beach. All three dogs are currently asleep though!

Pix scared me a little. She got too hot while travelling and waiting at the house for the key. But she has cooled down now and is safe and comfortable. It’s a bit of a relief.

I am struggling a little.

@Captain24 sending you hugs sweetheart ❤️

Hi @Captain24 , oh holiday day today! I hope the drive down/up to the beach was good - other than pix getting a bit too hot. it was pretty warm where I am today too 😓 so I can understand the car aircon not quite keeping up with the heat. I'm glad she recovered well and all the dogs are happy sleeping. 😊

Hope you're having dinner soon, and get to take Pix for a private beach walk with a smoke later on.

I'm not a smoker, but I understand it can be a calming thing for some of my friend who are not regular smokers when they are especially stressed. And of course for friends who regularly smoke, going without one when craving it can be really stressful and heighten anxiety. I am sorry that your family are judgemental of you for it, and not accept that it is your choice (even if it has health risks). *hugs* I don't judge you for it. 😊

@Bow the photo! 🤣

Thanks @AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin

The walk was with my parents. I will go to the beach tomorrow afternoon for a couple of hours.

Im really struggling with words. I don’t know what to say.

@Captain24 love the pictures sweet.

It's ok if you don't have the words, just know that we are here with you ❤️.

@Captain24 lovely pics, thank you. Dogs look so happy. 😊

It's OK to not know what to say. Sitting with you. I wonder if something like patting the dogs or giving one of them a cuddle would help express the pain without words.

While I desperately want to hang around and chat I just can’t. I can’t face anymore. I’ve just crawled into bed and hoping the sleep finds me. If it doesn’t I will be back.

Im really sorry as I do really want to talk and need to talk but words are just failing me. Please don’t think I’m letting you down. I really want to hear what’s happening big I’ll have to read it in the morning.

I truly am sorry.

@AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin @Jynx @tyme

Hey @Captain24 , I was just responding.

I'm sorry you feel this way tonight. Please know I'm here even if you feel you want company for a short time?

I've been looking forward to hearing how today went...

The firecracker cried herself to sleep. She's so exhausted from having to be 'good' at school I reckon.