I can’t cope

I'm glad to hear that last night went okay, and I'm hoping tonight is the same and then you can focus on looking after you for the next two weeks @Captain24

It sounds like right now is when you need community the most, so please don't feel like you need to apologise.

Thanks for helping me @AlwaysMyself

Im glad I didn’t forget that nan. She means the world to me. She is the first person that I ever lost. I cried myself to sleep for weeks, silently so no one would find out. I talk about her and pop a lot. They are often a part of my psych appointments.

Im not exactly sure what’s in the EA. Maybe I need to find out. I’ve had a Stat Dec before, I got one when Jett had his surgery so I could be home with him the first day. They are putting a stop to those too. They don’t like people calling in sick and a lot of people are doing it. You can’t get annual leave as they will only allow 8 people off at a time and there is 56 on crew. That includes pre-approved sick leave, long service leave and parental leave so if you have one of each off that only leaves 5 spaces. It’s so hard to even get just a day off. You have to book months in advance.

I’ve woken up early today which is going to make things a little difficult tonight and I have a big day tomorrow so I won’t get sleep until the afternoon, if I have time then. @Ru-bee

I do really need the community at the moment but I feel like I’m putting to much pressure on people. Especially when they are struggling themselves. You guys have been a godsend though especially in the hardest of times in the last week or so. I have noticed that a few of you are around a little more.

I’m really struggling to get ready. It’s so hard tonight.

Also I just had a call from the hospital I go to and they are closing down. I’m a little devastated. Plus that’s where I go to see my psych. Her other office is 5 hours away so I can’t go there, plus it’s in a bigger place, I think it’s in a city and that scares me. It’s a suburb but I think it’s busy.

Hello @Captain24 sweet, I'm sorry that you are struggling to get ready.

That sounds really hard and I can understand why you are devastated.

I'm here with you sweetheart ❤️

I finally got there @MissGremlin. I’m running late but I don’t care. I don’t care for anything.

Absolutely devastated. When I went and seen my psych last week the facilitators that I saw knew me by name. It’s like a little family. When the nurse rang me today I knew her voice before she said who she was. The company are going to run the same course but at a different hospital. The course will be fine but the place won’t be the same. It’ll be bigger and it will have males there as well. I liked that it was female only and a smaller group.

I hope you are as ok as you can be.

Hey @Captain24 that sucks about the clinic closing. They have been closing a fair few of their clinics around the country, I remember reading something about it last year cause there is one close to me but it’s not currently on the list to close. I went there to have ECT a few years back. If ya happen to find ya self there, it’s a good clinic, most of them are.

@Captain24 i hear you sweet but you did so well to get there, well done ❤️.

That small family feel is so comforting so I can really understand how unsettling it is to even think about losing that. The group sounds good but yes smaller groups and female only would be a bonus.

Things are really tough but I'm doing my best, I reached out to my counsellor this morning and she rang me just before. One second at a time it is for me at the moment (I'm safe).

Hiya @Captain24 😁

Totally worth looking more into Radical Acceptance!! It's one of those things we do have to keep practicing at in order for it to become automatic, but I find it super helpful - particularly in my relationships: being able to discern what is within my control (i.e. my own behaviour, my boundaries, etc.) and what is not mine to hold onto.

How's things with your self-talk been since we last spoke? I hear that work is weighing heavy too. I hope it's been going ok over the last little while 🤞

And OMG THE KOALA!! Such a cutie, how lucky you found it! So glad to hear it was a source of joy for you. Do you get a lot of joy by being in nature? I know I do! I imagine the beach is one place, do you also go out critter-spotting? I always feel so blessed, so lucky when I spot some wildlife. You should see how excited I get when I come across an echidna! Teehee 💜

So you know where I go? @Bow. It’s closing because they can’t get psychiatrists. It’s too far for them to come as there isn’t enough patients for a permanent position. The ones that they do have do private appointments as well. Because it’s pretty far away from anywhere no one was willing to go there.

Apparently that company has a good reputation. When you went were the group sizes small? Was there males in them? It’s a long time away before they lock in the program somewhere though.

Hope you are going ok?