I can’t cope

The last time I went down I nearly hit a roo on my way back and it was broad daylight. @tyme. They can be anywhere at anytime!

I guess I can share all that. I never thought of that. It’s hard as I haven’t really done much as it’s all been about work. She does acknowledge how hard I do try though. Today is the first day I’ve had off but I just couldn’t function this afternoon.

I might just write out what I’ve written and say that to her. Give her a starting point to go from. When she asks questions we sometimes end up going places I never expect.

I have a notebook that I write notes in during our appointments so I could take that or maybe just use my phone.

And I guess you can't do EVERYTHING in one session. Focus on the one skill/technique and hang onto that. During my sessions, I also wanted to make sure that the psych knew I was doing something. Hence I would share my progress or lack of progress so they know I'm trying.

If I were in a psych's shoes, and a person came in session after session but didn't practice anything, it could be so discouraging. That's why I always let them know whether something is working for me and I thank them.

@Captain24

It's totally not easy being a psych....

What time do you think you'll be home tomorrow? I'm not around. Not sure who is.

Oh, and I forgot to respond before. I'm here on Thursday, but the little one doesn't start until next week Wed. The little ones start a week later.

So this week, I'm on Thurs-Sun. I need to check the times though because I think my times have changed..

When is your next shift? Isn't it next Monday?

I do always say what I have done and if I don’t she usually asks the right questions to get it out of me. @tyme.

Id be frustrated with someone coming to me and wanting help but not doing anything about it. We meet each other somewhere in the middle depending on what’s happening. We work together, she knows me and works with me. We are constantly updating my SP with what has worked. Plus I go through it sometimes but already know a lot in my head.

I’ll be home hopefully around 7. It could be a good day but it could be a really long hard day. I’m really hoping the session isn’t too hard. If it was Telehealth it would be but I haven’t been in person in this much distress before. So it’ll just be a wait and see what happens.

Oh.. I have to wait a week? 😢 I’m excited.

I go back to work on Friday for 3 day shifts and won’t be home until around 8. Then Monday and Tuesday night shift and go on holidays on the Thursday! I’ll definitely see you this Thursday but depending on your hours as to whether I see you when I get home.

I'll probably see you Thursday evening then @Captain24

Oooo! I forgot about the holiday! Maybe it's good to start planning now:

1) If they annoy me, I will....

2) If they argue, I will...

3) If I have to walk off, I will...

LOL...

At the same time, always remember they won't be around forever. Is your bro going to this one?

Remember the last time I went to Sydney, my mum talked at me for a few hours??? I just put up with it lol and kept telling myself that they won't be around forever!

And yes, I'll update you with how the little fire cracker goes... And what's funny is that she's having the same teacher that my niece had in year 4. So she'll have two kids from the same family 2 years in a row - poor thing!

My brother lives there and was going to try and take a week off work to spend some time with us. That’s stressing me out as Pix really dislikes him, she can’t stand to be anywhere near him, so she barks constantly and gets into trouble. I don’t want to spend anytime with him. Him and mum together are a bad combination for me. My safe and alone space is the beach but my friend from hospital has booked to stay a couple of days to go to the beach with me. I think that that is awesome but at the same time it’s my only escape from being with people all day. I know that sounds selfish but my MH needs it!

That’s funny. The teacher is getting chalk and cheese! I have a school teacher story. I was going into year 3 and my mum went up to the school and demanded that I didn’t have a certain year 3 teacher or she was pulling me out of school. Why is that, you ask. Mum had the same teacher and didn’t want her anywhere near me. Mum had me when she was 26 so she wasn’t even a young mum, the teacher was old. She wasn’t my teacher but knew me and loved me and talked to me until she died several years ago!

Arghh... that's not good.. and how about you put any of your 'spare' money in a term deposit so you can't withdraw it? lol

Erghh... I hear you dilemmas with this trip. I know that you need your me time alone on the beach... hrmm. I don't have any suggestions @Captain24

As for Pix, she has GOOOOOD taste?

And your school story is so funny. That means you've been living in that area for a really long time! And how sweet that teacher talked to you and loved you so much. Seriously, people change. Experiences change people whether for better or worse.

Anyway, I'd better be off now. Speak on Thursday. All the best for tomorrow!

So my alarm has just gone off and I’m really tired. I really want to see my psych but right now I’m regretting it. I have to have a shower and wash and dry my hair. If I wasn’t so useless yesterday I would have done it then.

Im trying to tell myself that have an hour to walk along the beach is a good thing. I love the ocean and I am looking forward to it however not the drive. The drive there shouldn’t be too bad it’s the drive home after. I’m going to hit peak hour traffic through the edge of the city. Especially after what will probably be a heavy appointment.

I should be grateful that I can see her in person and I am. It’s going to be a bit cold though as it’s only supposed to to be 25 degrees down there especially after yesterdays 42 here.

Morning @Captain24 sweet, i can hear how tough you are finding it this morning and I understand.

I really hope the walk along the beach is good for you and that the drive both there and back goes smoothly for you.

I'm hoping the appointment goes well for you today and your psych can help you with some strategies so you can manage things better. Be gentle with yourself sweetheart, sending you love and hugs ❤️.

Morning @MissGremlin

Im sure once I get in the car and driving all will be ok. I’ll be on my own as I can’t take the dogs, pix won’t make the drive through the blue mountains of the mountains at where I’m going. She would vomit constantly! I drive pretty well and just relax into it unless there is too much traffic. At least most schools don’t go back until tomorrow so I won’t be in school traffic.

The walk along the beach will be beautiful. I’ll take some photos while I’m there. It’s a beach that I just sit and watch. I’ll call in and get subway and just watch the water then walk along the waters edge. It won’t be the first time I’ve gone to an appointment with sand on my legs!

She will help with stuff, she is really good like that. She has some weird ideas but they work and I’ll try anything she suggests.

How are you going this morning?

I’m an hour and a half into my drive, it’s Ben ok but I did have to dodge 3 goats! @MissGremlin. Just showing how rural I live! 😂