I can’t cope

Hello @Captain24, hope work was ok for you today. Thinking about you ❤️

Hey @Flutterbug9

I don’t have a lot of capacity at the moment.

But I do hear your anger issues in regarding how to deal with them. I actually have anger issues. I have a bad and quick temper. I say things in the heat of the moment that I shouldn’t say, I rant and rave. I have a bad anger problem. But only as I have gotten older that I express it. I never did before. I had to contain it as it wasn’t appropriate. Also if I got angry I got punished, not in the sent to your room kind of way. There was a whole lot of different rules around me and my brother. You can see the gender thing. I was controlled, not allowed to do anything or go anywhere as I was a girl. He could do anything as he was a boy.

Remind me if this conversation tomorrow night. Please. I’ll finish it then, this is a little triggering right now. I promise to finish tomorrow when you remind me.

You ok @Captain24

has something happened today?

sorry my post has triggered you.

Happy to edit my post.

Hey @AuntGlow

Sorry I was at work all day.

How I am feeling has gotten a lot worse and I’m struggling with it. I didn’t really talk to Pix, I kinda forgot but couldn’t do it either.

My psych appointment was huge. I told her everything that I’m thinking and feeling. She is really concerned and even got in contact with my GP so he will support me and she actually got me an appointment which is near impossible.

My self care day didn’t go well. I did stuff but had nothing to show for my day and that left me in a not ok place.

Hey @tyme

How are you?

Work wasn’t great but I guess it got me out of the house and distracted a bit. @MissGremlin

How are you?

I’m just not doing well @Flutterbug9.

No you didn’t trigger me at all! I did!!!

This is just an ongoing thing that just getting worse. I struggled at work today and I’m embarrassed about how I went. I feel shame and humiliation. I’m angry at myself.

@Captain24 I'm sorry to hear work wasn't great. Anything you'd like to talk about sweet?

Today has been really hard for me but I did get to catch up with my friend and her bubs.

I’m just ashamed at how bad I did. @MissGremlin. Just not concentrating properly and stuck in my head.

The medical centre rand and left a message. My psych obviously did get in touch. I have an appointment on the 3rd however I’m on nightshift and I’m suppose to be sleeping.

Im glad you got to see a friend and bub. I hope it put a little highlight into your day. Sorry it’s been so hard.

Im really sorry but I hustled don’t have the capacity to catch up on your thread. Please don’t take it personally.

Hey @Captain24 , sounds like work didn't go too well?

Don't be so hard on yourself. Have you had a shower yet?