I can’t cope

Nah.. I made a mess of everything. @tyme. Just couldn’t focus.

I’ve had a shower, had dinner and my dogs are home but they won’t stop barking and I’m really annoyed at them. I don’t have the patience for it.

Did you get the stuff done for your sister?

@Captain24 oh sweet, I'm sorry you are feeling this way.

That's a bit hard with the appointment being when you are supposed to be sleeping cos you have nightshift. I wonder if there's any way to maybe change the day/time?

It's ok sweet, you don't have to apologise. Just know that I'm here for you ❤️

I’m going to try and give them a call on Friday morning and see if I can change it to the next day. It’s my sleep day but I’ll be packing and cleaning to get ready to go on holidays the next day anyway. @MissGremlin Im hoping that they are able to change it. Otherwise I’m just going to have to juggle sleep and work.

Thanks for being here. I’m not much support right now for anyone and I’m really sorry.

Ever hit what you thought was rock bottom but rock bottom just keeps getting deeper? @tyme

@Captain24 hoping they can change it for you. Going on holidays sounds exciting though, where are you off to? Only if you want to share of course ☺️.

You don't have to apologise sweet, we are all here to support each other and right now you need support so we are here for you ❤️.

We are going to the coast @MissGremlin. We go to the same place twice a year. I go with my parents and our dogs. My brother lives there but I don’t care to see him.

Thanks for being with me

Hey @Captain24 ,

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@Captain24 wrote:

Ever hit what you thought was rock bottom but rock bottom just keeps getting deeper? @tyme

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I think I hit rock bottom, and because it's rock bottom, I can't get deeper, but I dont' feel I can get out at all. the thoughts were very dark.

I had to push myself to do the basic daily things.

I hear it's not easy at all. What about for tonight, you focus on getting yourself ready for sleep? I know you've had a big day at work.

Also, remember how I said I wouldn't take the kids to the beach? Well, I took them in the evening at around 5/6pm, and we had an amazing time. I took them for gelato and fish and chips too. It was great. Came home at 9 or something.

Then today, I minded 6 kids and we had a great time making jumps in the park and then they jumped in the pool! I told them to 'dip their feet'...

Oh well. just something to try and cheer you up. I know you're tired and this is probably the last thing you want to hear.

Just know I'm here for you.

When are you going away again @Captain24 ?

@Captain24 that sounds like a nice trip away and how cool that the dogs will be with you aswell.

You're welcome sweet, always happy to be here with you ❤️.

T/W mentions suicide.

can you put a trigger box @tyme please

Yeah. I’m just getting ready for bed.

Oh yay!!! You got to take them and make a night of it! So good. Didn’t fill your cup?

Six kids is a lot! I don’t know how you do it but it sounds like they had fun. No screens just outdoor fun