I can’t cope

Hey @Flutterbug9

I don’t think I know what I’m getting myself into? I thought it was just like Lego only little. Like just piece by piece

Your dad did a wonderful job! You are a very lovely kind hearted soul.

They are with me. @MissGremlin Pix is hot so she isn’t touching me but is sound asleep, snoring!!! No bones tonight. Jett is touching me. He got some gingerbread stuck in his throat tonight , he got it out but keeps licking his lips! I can win with them!! 😜

I’m complaining and it’s really only been a couple of days for me. You have been going through worse and for longer. I should be there for you. I’m really sorry.

Do you have Casper with you? Do you use him as your protective factor?

@Captain24 awww Pix snoring away, I find Caspers snoring soothing to listen to. Oh silly Jett, honestly it's always something with dogs sometimes 😂.

You're not complaining, you are sharing your struggles and that's a good thing rather than bottling things up, we are here to support each other through them. Please dont apologise, you have nothing to be sorry for.

I do have Casper with me and he's very much a protective factor.

She has now moved up the bed and is touching me! @MissGremlin. I love that she snores, it means I know she is breathing after having the big scare with her. She has snores since she was a little puppy!

Jetts a quiet sleeper but if I pat him while he is sleeping he attacks me!

Definitely always something with them. They keep me on my toes.

If it wasn’t for Pix I’d be long gone. It’s her that has saved me.

Im glad Casper is with you and needs you.

Im really hoping you get some sleep and I’m hoping that tomorrow can. E a slightly better day for you.

I have double vision reading the screen so I think it’s time I get some sleep, plus my alarm goes off at 4:30 in the morning.

Thank you so much for being here for me. I’m hoping there is others around for you. I’m sorry to leave you in the lurch.

Hope you get some sleep @Captain24 . I have laid down in bed too and can hear my dog on the end of my bed breathing too. No sure what she is doing in her sleep though... snorting and panting... not uncommon for her (along with those twitchy "running legs" some dogs get).

If i could send you and @MissGremlin the audio of her breathing sounds i would - you would laugh at her.

Sleep well both of you. I shall try to do the same. May tomorrow be better for us all.

@Captain24 I'll reply to the rest of the post tomorrow. But for tonight I will say night night and I hope tomorrow is a better day for you sweet.

Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

Think it’s me. Think I’m causing unwarranted stress and concerns @Captain24

mini bricks are like Lego bricks apart from the size.

Mini bricks are smaller.

largest mini brick that are part of pieces for the cats

can be hard to imagine actual size when looking at photo.

this one is approx 2.2cm w, 0.8cm d, 0.5cm h.

try not to worry, you will be fine.

until I started building with them I thought I’d made a mistake buying them. I honestly would not have recently bought most of the ones in boxes in the photos if they are difficult to build

@AlwaysMyself haha dogs really do make some funny noises when they are sleeping 😂.

I hope you get a good night sleep sweet and that tomorrow is a better day for you.

Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️

Hello @Captain24 my sweet, how's things feeling for you today?

Hiya @Captain24 I have just been reading along, sounds like it's been a really rough week for you hun. I'm sorry that things have been so heavy, such a battle for you. It actually makes me so so happy to see you connecting with some incredibly lovely members - @MissGremlin @Flutterbug9 @AlwaysMyself thanks for sharing your kindness and compassion with our dear Cap!!

Also great to see you connecting with one of our newer mods - I actually know @Forest_Fairy pretty well and can tell you now what a superstar they are! Hehehe 😋

Also I saw this -

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@Captain24 wrote:

as I taught his kids dancing and I could function through that.

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I'm sorry but THAT IS SO COOL!! You are/have been a dance teacher?! That is like, top notch Captain24 lore right there!! What kind of dance? Do you still get your boogie on from time to time? I've always found dance to be really healing in its own way, it's one of my fav self-care activities!

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@Captain24 wrote:

Just a question if it’s ok to ask, please tell me if it’s not, what is involved in medically transitioning?

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So it really depends, but it mostly falls into two categories - hormone replacement therapy (HRT) and surgical options. For me for example, HRT would be taking testosterone - which will result in a bunch of changes, e.g. redistribution of body fat, thickening skin, thickening vocal chords, and hair. Lots of hair. Hair in new places! 😂

HRT for trans women often results in softer skin, breast growth, and also redistribution of body fat. There's definitely a lot more to it, and to the changes, but that's a basic overview!

Surgery for FTM (female to male) is often mainly top surgery (double mastectomy, aka the removal of breast tissue to create a flat chest), and some folks also get bottom surgery, which for FTM folks is a phalloplasty - creating a penile appendage by using tissues from other parts of the body.

MTF folks might get bottom surgery too, which is called 'vaginoplasty' and (without knowing much about the science of it, soz) that involves sort of...inverting? the penis to become the lining of a new vaginal opening.

You can probably google those terms if you want to know more!! Incredible what medical science can do these days!

Hope today has been ok for you deary! 😊💜