I can’t cope

They are tiny @Captain24

I use Nanobricks tweezers and pad when building them.

im waiting on 2 orders from EBay

items I’ve ordered from Temu aren’t hobby or craft related.

im hoping to be able to order 2 items from LEGO within next month (without touching my savings).

Ive already got couple food fans, hoping to buy the fries food fan.

@Captain24 yes i am. I've put that on hold at the moment with everything that's going on. But I'm still working on things with him.

I didn’t know I needed tweezers? @Flutterbug9. What are the tweezers like?

I have a huge wish list of Lego! I want to save up to buy the aquarium! That’s hopefully my next actual Lego order!

Maybe when he is fully trained you can then look at getting another dog. @MissGremlin. When he knows his role. A lot of work goes into therapy dogs. The MH hospital that I go to had one and he was the same age as Jett so I watched him get trained, so much involved!

@Captain24 yeah maybe. Right now I'm happy for it to be just me and him. He's amazing at what he does now and has been from day one so I'm very lucky. Therapy dogs are honestly amazing.

@Captain24 No rush to answer.

seeking your help with best option.

some days I post Affirmations in Toolshed thread and tag lots of people. Have stopped tagging you recently knowing you have limited time to get on the forums and not wanting you to find lots of them.

I don’t want to bombard you, don’t want to have you feeling left out at same time. Are you ok to be tagged in group tag for Affirmations or do you prefer I don’t tag you? Happy to follow which ever you prefer 🌻🌷

Mini brick items can be built without using tweezers.

my preference is to use tweezers. Easier with my fingers.

i like using the pad as can put the first row of bricks on it and it keeps them in place whilst working on the item

Thank you so much for checking in with me. I really appreciate it! @Flutterbug9

I really don’t like group tagging. You know those posts where everyone is tagged. If I want to participate in a thread I will.

I don’t mind being tagged in threads that I have been in and don’t mind when I’m tagged with a few others so that the person tagging doesn’t have to repeat. So if you post on your thread with the others and me included that is fine.

The affirmations I actually do enjoy being tagged in. I don’t always get to them and very rarely comment but I do like to see them and scroll through them. It is actually uplifting when I see them.

I hope that’s clear, I’m not sure I made any sense.

Please ask me if it’s not clear as I really appreciate you checking with me. That actually means a lot to me that you would care to check.

I understand. @Captain24 💛

And this makes so much sense. It can be dysregulating to quickly mentally and physically adjust - you're not alone in this experience. I am just thinking, maybe the way you operate is right for you and where your mind/body are at right now? Perhaps, the focus here could be more on how you talk to yourself? I just wonder if exploring self-acceptance and compassion could actually allow things to soften, whilst still sticking to the structure that works for you? 🤔

Once again, your psych sounds amazing. 🤩

haha of course they do!!

Honestly, I think loving them with all your heart is more than enough. I know how well taken care of they are. 🫶

Could there have been some other external contributing factors that made today feel more challenging?

I completely get why you would be feeling distraught and overwhelmed by the prospect of your break from life feeling tainted in some way. I know when we experience anxiety, 'black and white' thinking can become very prominent... so I would like to offer the idea that today doesn't automatically equal every day.

I know you have mentioned not wanting to exist anymore, so I am wondering if I should be worried about your safety tonight? I am here to help you, so let me know what might help right now. 🥰

Also, I can see that you and @MissGremlin are feeling a similar way, so I am wondering if you could be there for each other tonight as well? ☺️

I’m up later than I intended. I’m feeling pretty despondent.

I am dreading waking up to face another day. I don’t want to have to do it all over again. Its like it has been on repeat

I haven’t been this bad for this long for a while. It’s feeling a little too much. Usually work is my reprieve but not today. What if tomorrow is the same?

Do I really need to keep doing this?