I can’t cope

Hi @Captain24,

I can hear you are absolutely doing your best despite what's going on in your inner world.

How nice that you can sit back and enjoy the fruits of your labour, not only in having them displayed with such pride but also as it shows your dedication to your self-care with all of the hours you have spent committed to your mindful/creative practice.

That's great insight around the importance of rest. I would say rest is equally (if not more) important than time being productive. But I hear you, you want to do what feels right for you and keeping busy helps you to have a focus. Some people find this reframe useful - to consider that if rest helps you to get what you want to and need to get done, it becomes more of an element of necessity for achieving your goals as opposed to self-care. What are your thoughts on this idea?

You've got some great ideas around grounding and I think it's awesome you are putting things into place despite how you are feeling. It sounds like you know what works for you. And I'm sure your dogs are more than happy to have some grounding pats and cuddles with you.

Forest_Fairy

@Captain24 that looks amazing sweetheart, well done ❤️.

Thanks @MissGremlin @Flutterbug9

Its from spotlight and its made out of wood and the decorations are a strong paper.

The other ones I do are all wood.

Makes me think of things made by Rolife @Captain24

I do do a lot of Lego @Forest_Fairy. I find it keeps me busy but right now I’m not interested in it. I have quite a few sets here to do and I have more on order. Maybe when the new ones come I might be keen.

I like that reframe. Self care isn’t something I allow myself to do at the moment so my psych has changed it to maintenance. I really do see rest as important. I just need to change my mindset, or lessen my mindset.

The dogs got on the bed with me and we slept for an hour. I need a lot more than that but I just got up and making some dinner and then I think I’ll just go back to bed.

Too many thoughts and urges, everything is spiralling out of control right now.

I think that might be the brand. I’m sure the other ones I do are roKr. @Flutterbug9 I usually do enjoy them. I do prefer the all wooden ones though not those with the tiny little paper details. I do have a puppy shop one to do as well.

@Captain24 seeing all of your creations genuinely left me in awe. I especially liked the flowers and cacti. I'm sure that when the time is right you will start building one of your new sets again.

Sounds like you are wanting to be honest with yourself and to be realistic about what is achievable in terms of rest.

I hope you enjoyed your nap and time with the pooches, and that you have a yummy dinner.

Know that you are not alone, your community is here to support you.

Forest_Fairy

I’ve got a couple of miniature rooms, think they might be that brand @Captain24

Some parts of the ones I’ve got are going to be very fiddly

Hey @Forest_Fairy

I have quite the collection! The flowers are cool though. I did a gem one that is my favourite out of all of them.  Photos don’t do it justice.

I’ve had dinner but I haven’t done the dishes. I just can’t do them.

Im trying to watch tv but I can’t focus.

I am stuck in a downward spiral of negative thoughts. Lots of SI thoughts.

I have been out the back barefoot in the grass and feeling the wind blow in my hair. It didn’t help. I’m at a loss. I’m feeling alone. I’m feeling helpless. My two babies are happily chewing on bones so they are distracted.

I am safe at the moment.

They do do rooms @Flutterbug9. They are really fiddly. I’ll do the puppy one one day and then I think I might stick to the other ones. Today wasn’t enjoyable at all. I did do another one and it was ok though.

You will have to give them a go and let me know how you go. The little peices break pretty easily though.