I can’t cope

Sorry I didn’t reply fully @Flutterbug9 I got calls into my appointment early!

I get keeping busy takes your mind off things. That’s why I write to-do lists and fall in a heap when I’m finished them.

Im going to either weed my garden today or go and mow mum and dads lawn. Not sure which yet!

I went to Bunnings and they didn’t have what I wanted. But they had a set of shelves that are a little smaller than the ones I’ve got so it’ll be different but might give more space. Plus they are cheaper and I can get 2 boxes and have extra shelves. I’ll measure my space and think about it.

How are you feeling today?

Yeah it’s great @MissGremlin then add adhd and it’s conflicting quirks and it makes for a great time!

He is a character. I’m lucky he isn’t a human child, I’d never control him! He is different to any other dog I’ve had. Just a happy and simple little fella. He isn’t very smart though. He is learning cues of Pix but just slow at it. I’ve had him 2 years! 😂 Pix is really intelligent though. She knows everything and knows phrases even if you use the same tone in a conversation and stick the phrase in there!

Pix will jump around and carry on asking or she will sit at the pantry door. I wish I could share a video of when she asks and gets one. She gets so excited especially when I say yes!

I love how he knows it’s ‘the’ cupboard! Pix is so easy with her food, she will just eat whatever you give her. She loves fish but her body doesn’t! Lots of runny bums! Jett is really fussy and will only eat when he wants to. If he doesn’t eat his food I have to pick it up or Pix will. It’s good that they are good eaters, it makes it so much easier. What do you feed them?

She is so good. I am really really lucky to have her and don’t take it for granted. She works on most skills when I’m in a better headspace so I can learn to use them. I really try hard to do what she says as I have full trust in her. She only wants what is best for me. Plus I’m a people pleaser.

Not sleeping well is so hard, it really doesn’t help the heavy feeling. Do you have a sleep hygiene routine?

Getting out sounds like a good idea, it’s hard especially when you don’t want to but at least it’s something that you have done. A nap sounds good though.

I’ve just had my ultrasound and I have a dietitian appointment in 30 minutes. Then I’m deciding whether to weed my garden or go and do mum and dad’s lawn. So far it’s only 32 so I don’t think we will hit the 39 it’s suppose to be. But I also still have pain and the ultrasound really hurt.

Feeling better than I was earlier @Captain24

last night was another night of not much sleep due to brain not wanting to turn off, warm night didn’t help either. Saw 1am and been awake since just after 6am.

i had front and back doors open earlier in hope to get some fresh, cooler air inside. Was 24 inside at 8am and 21 outside. Closed the doors and put air con on about 11:30, was 25 inside and outdoors with warm strong wind. Headache is almost gone and feeling more comfortable.

I don’t cope with heat or too cold. Day of 15 to low 20’s with light breeze and some sun is my comfort zone. Comfort zone at night is 8 to 15.

I keep saying I’m going to move those shelving units, better get to it. Also to let you get to get outside. 🙂

I’m glad you are feeling a bit better @Flutterbug9. It feels like a relief when there is a slight shift. For me anyway even while the thoughts are still dark just knowing that they aren’t quite so dark in that moment.

It’s hard when it won’t stop. It just seems to go on through a loop. Have you ever tried meditating? I don’t like it but some people do. I do use the sounds of thunderstorms or rain on a tin roof from the smiling mind app. Sometimes I can focus on the sound and that sometimes helps. My thoughts are the worst when I get into bed.

Not sleeping makes things harder especially on warm nights. I love to hot weather but not when I’m trying to sleep but I am lucky as I have air conditioning. I set it to 16 degrees every night and that’s comfortable for me to sleep with the dogs and my doona.

Im glad it’s not as hot for you. Have a cool breeze sounds lovely. I do love a cool breeze. I’m glad the headache is nearly gone. It’s just one layer of stuff you can take off.

That's too cold for me. My comfort zone for daytime is 30+. I love it.

Good luck with the move around. I hope it works how you have planned. I’m going to hang my washing out and see if I can lift the lawn mower into my car. It’s hard with constant stomach pain.

Enjoy re-organising!!

Oh… and I just ordered a heap of mini bricks from Temu. They have the ones that tyme got!

So I went and had my ultrasound. I had to sign to say I agreed to the internal.

She said it looks like the mirena is sitting low in my uterus. Then she changed her mind. Then she said I can promise you anything. The doctors really need to look at it. It sounds a bit concerning. I’m hoping that I hear from the gyno early next week. I’ll be at work but they should email or leave a message. Hopefully. I can try and contact them Wednesday morning if I haven’t heard anything.

More unknown….

It can be hard waiting for conclusive results after the doctor reviews it, or at least it can be for me, @Captain24 . Fingers crossed they are able to get in touch early next week with the results. 😊

Do you know what the "next steps" would be for both outcomes? (whether it is in the right place or a little too low)

Anxiety around this?

I'm sorry to hear the ultrasound was a bit painful and uncomfortable. 😢. Hoping the feeling of it subsides very soon for you.

Hey @AlwaysMyself

How are you going?

Hopefully they get in touch.

I don’t know what is next. I think it’s all up in the air until the results come through. He never really said what would happen. Yes… more anxiety. I have always been one to not worry about things. Just very ‘whatever’ and deal with it later. This is a little different as things aren’t going the way they should be. I shouldn’t have pain or blood loss. I shouldn’t have needed a scan. The next surgery in May, I’m worried about the same thing happening. That I have to go through all of this again. I’m not worried about the results at all as I will deal with it as it comes. Right now I want to pain and blood loss to stop. It’s disgusting and I feel horrible and dirty. Plus constant pain isn’t ideal.

The pain has lessened from the scan but it hurt so much while she was doing it. I have a pretty high pain threshold but this hurt.

@Captain24 haha oh I hear you. The combination of adhd and autism is just an absolute blast 😂.

Hehe i love how they all have different personalities. Like Casper knows so many words and he's very quick to learn new tricks. Stella already can sit and give paw so she's going to pick things up pretty fast.

Awww how cute, she loves her treats. Casper gets so excited for his and he'll almost do flips while you are getting them out 😂.

Mine have royal canin crunchies and I get chicken necks and also get a fresh loaf thing occasionally. Haha I love that Pix will eat anything whereas Jett is fussy. Labrador are known to eat anything they can get 😂.

I'm so glad you have found someone that you really connect with and trust, that kind of support is exactly what's needed.

I do, I do several things while winding down for bed and then sit on my bed with my music, an audiobook or my TV shows and do my colouring.

Going out today was horrible in the heat but the actual shops i managed ok, it was quiet which was really nice. Even survived the evacuation alarm going off 😂.

I'm sorry the ultrasound really hurt. How are you feeling now sweet?

@Captain24 yay I made you laugh! Cha-ching! This makes me happy 😋

I think it will require me getting some special glue and some spare fabric, but it's about 5 years old at this point so idk if it's worth it. We shall see!

It will take time, there's a lot to learn and yet more to unlearn, but we walk the path together!

Well we will be here for you hun, forums fam is in your corner!

Okay the big one... how was the appt? Are you feeling okay this evening?

That’s so good that they have learnt a lot especially Stella already. @MissGremlin

That’s good food for them. Pix gets prime fresh log and Jett has ‘advanced’ kibble and the prime slow cooked. It doesn’t really cost much to feed them but they are only little!

She is an amazing support. I really do understand how lucky I am. I do wish everyone could find someone like her.

Oh ok. I thought maybe there was something I could do to help but you already do it. I didn’t believe in it at the start but I know do have a routine and I’m not sure if it works or it’s the routine that winds me down as it’s bed time.

Im glad you got out. I love it when they aren’t busy. You can do what you need and get out without running into people! The evacuation alarm would have been interesting!

I just mowed mum and dad’s lawn. There was a bit of an argument between me and dad as he didn’t want me to do it in this weather. When I finished it was 39 degrees! I was hot but kept hydrated so I’m ok. I actually enjoyed being out in the sun and doing something. I then came home and weed’n’feeded my lawn. Now just to wait for it to dry before I let the dogs out.

I’ve just had a shower to get the grass and sweat off me and I’m running a bath to try and relax.

I still have a fair bit of pain but I guess that’s something I’m getting used to too.

How are you going?