I can’t cope

What I was watching I found on FB.

she used wooden blocks, starting with small and increasing in height, and toy train engine to demonstrate that starting off with something small builds up motivation, her demonstration resulting in the toy engine travelling quickly.

I was the same with previous psychologist. Dreaded going, used to hope appointment would get cancelled from her end. 1st appointment with new psychologist went heaps better than I was expecting. I’ve told her there are things that happened with other therapist that I don’t want to have happen again, has asked me to tell her, when I feel comfortable, so she can try to avoid doing similar. I told her I felt very nervous and anxious about coming to 1st appointment. Her reply included that is understandable and that she doesn’t expect me to immediately trust her.

Maybe her approach is different as she also works with children, no idea

majority of my Lego are buildings with a base of approx 25cm square. I have mdf on the chrome shelves which they stand on. Idea to, at some stage, paint the mdf in paint to create road appearance.

currently on table in the garage, as have no where else to put them, as 2 boats.

though I had bought all the buildings. Wrong! Found new one on Lego website yesterday. Might need to rethink items that are in front bedroom.

I enjoy making things with my hands which includes the different types of bricks plus miniature rooms (haven’t started them yet).
another hobby lots of people don’t get which I understand and I’m fine with. My car is too wide to fit into my garage, have thoughts of building working model train layout in there.

choosing to share this with you. There are certain people on the forums I do not tag and that I avoid. Various things happened on my old profile, including someone gaslighting me. Following chats with Tyme I had my old profile deleted and started the one I use now.

shower done and am dressed. Load dishwasher and putting clean laundry away next. Have some notes to record in notebook for appointment with psychologist tomorrow

hoping you get some restful, relaxing sleep and feeling better after it.

Thanks for sharing @Flutterbug9

Ive just woken up and getting ready for work.

Ill reply in the morning when i get home if thats ok?

I know you're going off to work @Captain24, I just wanted to quickly stop by and say hello, I haven't had a chance to really catch up yet but I hope you've been well

@Flutterbug9 @MissGremlin it's good to see you!

Hello @Ru-bee, it's lovely to see you ☺️.

@Captain24 i hope work goes well for you sweet, thinking of you ❤️

I hope you get to see your mum alongside your next psych appointment @Captain24 . Sitting at the beach before the long drive home sounds a good way to process thoughts. 😊

I got home safely. Had a bit of a rough afternoon with my thoughts, but physically OK. Dogs were of course happy to see me.

I hope your night shift is currently going well. I am glad you were working with an understanding coworker and they gave you the grace with fixing your mistakes. I hope you had a good rest earlier today and are less tired this evening. Hope you get to take 5min out to look up at the stars tonight. 😊

I resonate a lot with what you said to @Flutterbug9 about showering, and even just getting dressed in the morning. Although I have over time decided that i don't think it is "disgusting" to now shower, but that it is respectful/expected to not smell when going to work or social gatherings (which serves as a motivation to shower for those occasions) and also that it is respectful to have a shower before my massage appointments because they are touching my skin. Between this, it has usually meant that I have at least 1-2 showers a week 😅. When I used to do pool-based exercise, I reckon that mostly counted as a shower too - that chlorine will neutralise anything 😅 -- but i dislike the smell of chlorine so I would also rinse it off my skin and hair. I hope to start doing that again (even if only once a week) this year.

Love the pics and sentiments in them @Flutterbug9 . Fingers crossed for your appointment tomorrow, and interested to hear how it goes if you want to share afterwards (please tag me?).

@MissGremlin I love that one of @Captain24 's suggestions was helpful and that it came to mind when you woke up. 😊

...I also have many dog toys spread around my loungeroom lol. Have to tidy them up once a week when my cleaner comes to vacuum.

Nice to see you back @Ru-bee , and hope you had a very good time off (but also OK if you didn't - I don't like to just assume that people do, as I know that can be hurtful when that happens).

That's such a lovely and thoughtful welcome back @AlwaysMyself Thankfully I did have a good time off, I saw my family and was able to get into some hobbies so all in all it was a good time 😊

Hello @Ru-bee , great to see you back my friend 🧡

Great to be back @Shaz51 😊😊

Thank you everyone for thinking of me. I don’t have time to respond now as I’m really really tired and got home late. I’ll catch up on responding tomorrow sometime.

Im really sorry that I can’t do it now but all I want to do is get to bed.

But thank you again. I have read them all and really appreciate it. please don’t think I’m being rude.

I’m thinking of you all as well. Especially when I was looking at the stars last night

@AlwaysMyself @MissGremlin @Flutterbug9

Also thank you for checking in @Ru-bee I really appreciate you popping in. I’ll catch up with you tomorrow too.

Tonight is the last one so then I’ll be free for 5 days.

Hello @Captain24, there's nothing to apologise for sweet and you're definitely not being rude. I hope you can get some rest and we will talk to you whenever you can.

Sending you lots of love and hugs sweet ❤️