I can’t cope

@Captain24 well I'm glad nothing happened. Maybe the lack of sleep from the other night has caught up with your body.

I hear you and you don't have to respond to anyone right now, even me if it's too much. It's ok to take time for yourself whenever you need to sweet.

Maybe there's something small to nibble on? Or even just allowing yourself a bit of time to settle and then maybe you'll feel hungry after.

It's ok sweet, you are doing so well to just focus on this moment. I often take things second by second when things get too much.

I'm in pain from tooth infections but I'm ok.

I don’t know @MissGremlin. It’s only 22 degrees here and I’m freezing. I have winter pj’s on. That’s probably not helping.

I did look at the weather for my days off and it’s going to be really nice so I’m thinking maybe lying in the sun for a bit might help. I’ll just have to be careful with the 38 and 39 degree temperatures, I don’t want to get burnt where my body hasn’t seen the sun this year. But that’s still days away.

I just feel like some chocolate but that’s not enough to have my meds. Or I can just not take the one that makes me sick if I don’t eat.

It’s so hard.

Have you got anything for your tooth infection? I hear that they are really painful? I’ve never had one but dad has and he was in a lot of pain.

How’s Casper?

@Captain24 yeah the cooler weather can definitely affect our mood aswell.

Lying on the sun when the weather is warmer sounds lovely but yes definitely be careful on the really hot days, it doesn't take long to get burnt when it's that hot. I struggle with being in the sun, for some reason it makes me feel like I'm coming down sick with a cold/flu.

Having some chocolate is a start and it's better than nothing.

I'm on antibiotics, have pain relief, clove oil and my wheat bag but nothing gives any relief unfortunately.

Casper is doing well, he's been snuggling with me all day.

How are your babies?

I don’t do cold weather @MissGremlin. I depose it. Give me the 39 degree days any day! I love the sun and would mow my lawn if I wasn’t weed’n’feeding it. My arms, legs and face are brown so they will be ok it’s just the rest of my body but I’m pretty lucky as even if I do burn it’ll turn brown.

That’s weird about feeling like you’re getting a cold. That would really frustrate me. Weather affects everyone differently!

My babies have not long gotten home so they are excited to see me. Pix wants a treat and is asking non-stop, so I think I’ll give them one.

That sounds horrible. Is there anything that anyone dentist can do? To make it more comfortable for you?

@Captain24 haha see I'm the opposite, give me the cooler weather any day 😂. That's very lucky, my skin is pale and I burn easily if I'm in the sun for even just a short time.

The weather definitely affects everyone differently.

Awww I'm glad they are home. Hehe Pix wanting a treat, I reckon they definitely deserve one ☺️.

Unfortunately I can't afford the dentist so I just have to ride it out.

I have olive skin only it’s really white where it hasn’t seen sun plus my skin is aboriginal skin so that helps too @MissGremlin. My psych thinks I may have SAD in winter. The dull, dark, cold days really get to me. Some mornings when I finish work or start it can be -6.

I have noticed in here that not many people like the sun and heat. More prefer the cold.

It’s really weird when I’m home without them. In the cooler months they are here before I get home but mum walks them after dinner as it’s way too hot to walk them before so that’s why they come home late in summer.

I gave them a treat. Pix definitely doesn’t need it but I love seeing her reaction when I say she can have one. It makes my heart melt. She is such a beautiful little girl. Jett gets all excited too and will sit up really tall to get one. He isn’t any where near as good orientated as Pix though.

Im sorry you can’t get a dentist. Hopefully the pain eases soon for you. Can you go to the doctor and get stronger pain relief or stronger antibiotics?

Im laying in bed and think I should just go to sleep. While bed is my safe space, the thoughts get stronger and darker. My alarm is set for 7 in the morning so that’s a better wake up time. I have a couple of things to do in the morning before I go to bed at 12pm so hopefully that keeps me busy until my arvo sleep.

I really hope you have a good night and get some decent sleep even though you have so much pain. Maybe tomorrow might be a little brighter for both of us.

Thank you for tonight. Sorry I’ve been difficult.

yes I’m safe if anyone is reading along.

Hi @Captain24

It sounds like had such a tough time getting home, but you made it and you are in your own space, and hearing your body wanting to cry is such a good thing.

Take your time to let it out and keep being brave and reaching out to the forum, and don't forget to be kind to yourself - being a little messy is not a bad thing. Looks like you have kept engaging which shows your strength 🙂

Mindee

@Captain24 I'll reply to the majority of this post tomorrow only cos I've got something happening that's overwhelming me at the moment (I'm safe).

You haven't been difficult at all sweet and I'm so glad I could be here for you ❤️.

I hope you can get a good night's sleep too and yes let's hope tomorrow is a brighter day for both of us. Night night sweet ❤️

I’ve just broken @Mindee. I hate crying and I’m ashamed of it but just can’t keep it at bay any longer.

I don’t deserve to do anything kind for myself. Not with my thoughts.

@Captain24 it's ok to cry sweet, there's nothing to be ashamed of.

You do deserve to do kind things for yourself but i know it's hard when we are having dark thoughts. Just know you're not alone, we are all here with you and we'll get through this moment ❤️