I can’t cope

That’s ok.. @MissGremlin. I understand that. Do you have any supports? Or do you have to do it on your own?

@Captain24 the forums community is really my only support that I have.

That’s a shame… @MissGremlin. Do you have a safety plan? I can share some of mine on my next days off if that helps plus share some of what my amazing psych suggests. I get psychs are really expensive so I can understand why people can’t have aupports.

I had a psych who did a bit of image rescripting with me on a traumatic childhood memory too @Captain24 , i found it helpful too. Felt i had more "control" over how i would act if a similar thing happened to me now as an adult.

I'm ok, but i have my ups and downs. Not having a great mood/thoughts today - partly tiredness, possibly partly the feelings from being around my father whilst i visit him :face_with_rolling_eyes:. But these feelings/thoughts are "old hat" for me. Been dealing with them for 25 years, and I'm only in my 30's lol 🤣. Dont remember not having these thoughts.

@Captain24 whilst i have a safety plan the majority of it is no longer possible so it doesn't really work. Psychs are definitely expensive, I saw one a few years ago but that was covered luckily. But trying to get support now is proving to be impossible. I would love that but only if you are comfortable to do so ☺️

I will do my best @MissGremlin @you’ll just have to wait a few days though I’m sorry.

Im going to try and get some sleep, I hope you do too and have some space from those thoughts and tears.

It was hard work and we had to re-do it in the next session too but it was amazing @AlwaysMyself

I’m sorry it’s so rough. When do you leave your dad’s?

I get being around parents, mines been 40+ years!

I’ll respond tomorrow if that’s ok. I’m feeling tired and am hoping I may get some sleep before 4:30!

@Captain24 that's completely ok sweet, there's no pressure at all even if you decide to change your mind.

Night night, wishing you a gentle nights sleep ❤️.

Of course, @Captain24 . 😊. And no pressure to respond tomorrow either - when you feel ready and able and up to it. I can imagine you may feel absolutely exhausted after work (i totally related to the post-work curl up in a ball!! Oh, and i was super impressed by how much you got done the other day! Wow!)

I head back to my home on Sunday, so only tomorrow left. I could head back tomorrow, but my plan has been sunday so i think it would be awkward to say im heading home a day early (would have to give a reason, and i have a self-policy that i dont lie, so if im asked why it puts me in an awkward position of how to explain).

No set plan for tomorrow yet though. See how tired i feel as to whether i go out anywhere or just stay at the house.

Im also going to try to get some sleep/rest now. 😊. Fingers crossed for all 3 of us to sleep well soon @Captain24 @MissGremlin

@AlwaysMyself night night, hope you have a good sleep sweet ❤️