I can’t cope

Yeah. I’ve spent the afternoon laying on the couch doom scrolling @Captain24

D’s father asked to have her for the day today (I said ok cause we were overseas last year). He bought her home after 4hrs.

toast for dinner.., if I can be bothered

so yeah, family can be annoying but at least you get to celebrate together

Doom scrolling is the pits, seeing everyone happy and joyful all the time. @Bow Today would be worse.

I hope D enjoyed herself while she was there and now she is in her happy place with you.

Yeah, they are annoying but mum is always really good on Christmas Day when she isn’t doing it all. She loves it that I do it.

It is good to be spending with them and I appreciate that I get to as one day they won’t be here. I just get exhausted and overwhelmed. I put my all into today to make it great for everyone.

Im sorry that you have taken it the wrong way. I do appreciate it just get overloaded.

I have heard from one cousin and one aunty today. Not my brother or my niece.

Hey @Captain24 , i saw your post elsewhere and could tell you were upset by something. I don't know the backstory, but just wanted to say you are wanted here, you are appreciated as part of this community. I hope you feel you can stay, and i hope you will be able to talk theough whatever happened with whomever to resolve any hurt feelings. *big hugs to you*

Im going to bed also because i too am so tired exhausted from 7 hours out of home for family lunch today. 😴 takes everything out of me.

Hey @AlwaysMyself

Im tired of it all. It doesn’t matter, I feel judged a lot lately. With a few things that have been said.

I thought about calling a crisis line but I guess it’ll be way too busy.

I’ll just deal with everything in my head alone. Don’t want to upset anyone

I I hope you sleep well. I get the big day. Mine started at 7 and has not long finished. I had about an hour and a half to myself all day.

Wow that is super long day around people @Captain24 , i would feel overwhelmed if i were around people all that time 🥴.

Would you like to chat to me about your thoughts?

Or like me to keep you company whilst you wait on a crisis line?

Because it matters to me. I care, even though i dont know you heaps well. But i see you around the forum. 🙂

And i promise you can't/won't upset me, because I won't let anything you say upset me. I look at the intent, even if things people say come out in a way others may misunderstand. I've been misunderstood in life many time also, and know it hurts me when i feel people are judging without understanding or listening genuinely.

Hi @Captain24

Sounds like a tough night tonight, we are so glad you are reaching out for support here on the forum. Please know you are not alone and support is out there.

If you think you need it, using a crisis line sounds like a good idea, and remember some of them have chat and text-based options too if it helps:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

If in immediate danger: 000

Please take care over there

I had a post removed so I’m just hoping on to make it clear.

I am stepping away from the forums as it is all getting too much. Maybe my headspace is reading more into things than what is actually meant. Certain comments, certain remarks, not just on this thread but some of the others as well. But it’s making feel judged and since I judge myself all the time I don’t need to feel it on here.

It’s doing more damage than good. I don’t feel like I belong here right now.

This is not a ‘goodbye’ message. I am safe. But being in here is questioning my safety.

Just because my life looks good from the outside doesn’t mean it is in the inside. Yes I work and in a job with demanding hours, shift work affects your mental health. I have hormone issues going on, they affect my mental health. I have several diagnoses and all the hormones are affecting them too. I have trauma, that affects my mental health. Yes some have much worse trauma but mine is mine.

I shouldn’t have to justify my self as to why I’m on here but right now I’m feeling like I do have too.

Im really struggling in my day to day life and it’s getting pretty bad. I am safe for now. Just less judgement and stress is needed to keep it that way.

Hey @Captain24

Thanks for letting us know more about what's been happening for you. It's great you can identify what you're needing 🌸 right now and that part of this is to step away from the platform. I am glad to hear you are safe and I hope taking a break is helpful 🦋.

Take Care

TunedIn🌿

I hope having time off-forum helps @Captain24 . I respect your decision, and I am glad you are doing what is best for YOU right now. Take care.

I really resonated with your comment that "Just because my life looks good from the outside doesn’t mean it is in the inside."

I have this issue too with people in my face-to-face life, where they have absolutely no idea what's going on behind the scene they see. I hear you, i validate it as a real thing.

sitting with you @Captain24 ❤️