@Captain24 wrote:
In my head I know that @Jynx but when I’m in that state it feels like I’m not wanted. It’s hard, knowing and feeling feels like two completely different things.
I very much know this hun - and not just because I experience it too, but because I know that this is how our brains work. We are feeling creatures first, and until the feelings settle down, logic ain't always gonna work! So don't be thinking this is a personal failing, it's quite literally how we're wired.
I do think you overestimate how 'difficult' you are for us to work with. I think I've told you before that your trauma narratives are similar to my own - so for me it's almost helpful sometimes, cos when I'm reminding you of stuff, I'm also reminding myself.
I think sometimes the hardest part is when we have to apply mod rules and practices to your posts, whilst knowing it's not going to be a fun time for you or might result in you feeling worse. Definitely my least favourite, but we know you're not trying to be difficult or trying to make our job harder - you're just out here trying to survive.
You are so wonderfully kind and thoughtful!! Doing that for your folks, knowing your dad would have struggled with the heat. Go you!
Hope you've stayed hydrated and been able to chill out a bit this arvo 😉
