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I can’t cope

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Aww hun, many hugs of solidarity dear @Captain24

(づ ᴗ _ᴗ)づ♡

Hehe breakfast of champions eh? Hope it keeps you going!!

Hope you find yourself with fun side quests and not misadventures tonight hehe

Niiiiight! 💜

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Hey @Captain24 ,

I know you're at work, but I was coming past to say hi 🙂

Today wasn't as grand as I would've liked because I ended up with a thumping migraine and sat in the car after seeing 2 animals...

At least the kids enjoyed it.

Speak soon.

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Thanks @Jynx I’m doing it a bit tough.

Breakfast got me through until about 10 and I was starving but lunch wasn’t until 1 so I had to wait. I tried to be careful with the condensed milk. The tin needs to last me 3 meals.

My shift was ok I guess. I kept stuffing up backing under the digger but he just loaded me anyway so that was good that he didn’t point out every wrong move.

I did struggle a bit with confidence when I couldn’t get it right.

I didn’t talk to anyone on the meal breaks I just sat outside.

I keep coughing and my chest hurts and my nose won’t stop running. I thought I should be over my cold by now.

Anyway heading to bed to do it all again tonight.

I hope you are doing ok?

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Hey @tyme

Thanks for popping by.

Im so sorry that you got a migraine especially while you were there. Im disappointed for you. At least the kids had a good time. Was it 2 or 3 of them?

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@Captain24 does sound like work has been a slog! Ya poor deary. Had any glimmers or highlights today hun? You catch some rays? 😎🌞

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It was a long night. A positive for tonight is that it is an hour shorter due to daylight saving! @Jynx

No rays as I was asleep. I did see the sun come up this morning while I was working though. The moon was bright last night. Trying to find something good in my life right now. At least I’m trying!

Trying to talk myself into a shower.

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@Captain24 trying is soooo important hehe we never get anywhere if we don't!

Do you reckon we have 'saved' daylight yet? 😋

You know, I got this body wash a lil while ago - grape scented, and the texture of shaving foam. I absolutely LOVED jumping in the shower to have my grape foam! Hehe point is, maybe you could like...spruce up your shower time, make it feel more appealing?

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I had an okish night. @Jynx. It was really dusty so they swapped me from a truck and put me in a water cart which meant I was left alone all night so that was good.

Im not sure about this daylight ‘saving’ thing. I don’t think we save anything! But I did save an hour at work, it was only an 11.5 hour shift instead of 12.5! But now it’ll be dark driving to work again and the roos will be out but it will be daylight driving home.

I didn’t end up having a shower. I have to be careful with what products I use as I have really bad reactions to a lot of things. My skin is allergic to lots of stuff! I do have a shower before I go to bed when I’m working though just incase I can’t do it when I get up. So I wasn’t that stinky. Days off is way different though, I can go my whole block off and not shower once. I know that’s disgusting but I just can’t do it sometimes.

So I got my period last night (I know TMI) but it explains why all I did was sleep last week and I’m hoping that’s why I feel so down. Well that’s what I hope I’d like a reason and not just be that I’m useless. But now I’m miserable with bad stomach pains and still have another night to go sitting in a truck. 😔

I hope you are having a good weekend.

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@Captain24 love those days when we get to just vibe haha when I worked in hospo I'd always relish my turn to polish the cutlery, cos it was a time I could just zone out and be left alone 😋

Fingers crossed those roos stay out your way!!

Legit, I feel like there's no 'correct' frequency anyone is 'supposed' to shower. Not only is everyone's body different, but like... we didn't evolve showering every day. I think once a week is actually okay!

Haha it's not TMI it's a very natural and normal bodily function hun. And totally one that can mess with moods! I swear I get sooooo brittle, like watching a movie that's even a TEENSY bit sad and I am bawling 😅

Aww wish you a swifty shifty and hope that you are feeling a little better 🤞💜

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Hopefully I’m in it tonight too @Jynx. I don’t feel like doing much. Of I’m in it I can go to the toilet whenever I want which means I can actually have a drink!

My stomach pain is pretty bad. But I guess that’s what you get. The joys of having a uterus.

I have trouble with body odour at times. Apparently that’s the whole change of life bullshit. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much I shower it still stinks. It’s weird though as other times it’s fine.

I slept well but I still have my cold so I woke up a couple of times with my nose blocked and woke myself up coughing. I’ve been coughing that much that my chest is really sore so it hurts.

I feel like I just can’t catch a break.

The coordinator of the mental health group I go to wants to meet up for an hour or two this week to get to know me. I don’t want to do it but I guess I have to find time. I’ve let her have little bits of stuff but not a lot.

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