I can’t cope

I’m sorry @Captain24 😢

me too

Hey @Captain24 ,

I'm here if you want a chat. I hear it is exceedingly difficult for you today. What's been happening today?

Sitting with you,

tyme

Hey @Bow ,

Sitting with you too. I'm sorry today is also a tough one for you.

@Bow @Captain24 Do you find weekends tougher because there is less routine?

I used to find weekends most challenging.

Hugs, tyme

Yeah probably @tyme less routine, less of the usual supports.

Nothing has really happened today @tyme.

A couple of triggering things happened over the last 2 days.

I’ve just lost all sense of hope. I’m ready to give up. I can’t take it anymore.

True @Bow ,

One thing I had to learn to do was to plan ahead. If I know weekends were triggers, I would work with my treating team to make sure I had supports in place for the weekends.

I know it may seem easier said than done, but 5 years on, you'll probably turn around and say the same to someone else.

@Captain24 - I'm hearing you that triggers have made today difficult. Can you think of something to better yourself just for now? I'm not talking the next 10 hours... just for NOW.e.g. a walk, sleep, phone call to someone, netflix, game.

thoughts?

I looked out my blinds and the man across the road was gardening. So there was no way I could take Pix for a walk. So I went and had a shower. Just seeing him made me feel dirty. I’ve put on bulky clothes to hide my fat disgusting body. Knowing that he has been watching me has made my body image so much worse.

I have to go to dinner at my parents in half an hour. @tyme So that will distract me for a little while. Just hope they don’t say anything that will trigger me anymore. I have fallen into a really really dark

place.

Oh hun, please take care. @Captain24 . I hope seeing your parents will be a bit of distraction. If you can, stay there a bit longer so that you have company. Company will keep you safe. It may not be company of choice, but it will make a difference.

I'll be here when you get back 🙂

@tyme I can call the after hours team, but I never know who I will get and sometimes they are just plain rude. They talk at me as if I should know what to do, if I knew what to do I wouldn’t be calling them.

I see my psychologist tomorrow morning. I’m frustrated with myself cause I wanna start making progress. I feel so bloody stuck. Don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere with anything.

Hearing you @Bow .

Being 'stuck' is a hard place to be in.

My psychologist once said, "Stop trying... just learn to sit in the unpleasant space and eventually it will go."

This is a difficult skill to practice. But it does work.

I'm here if you chatting helps 🙂