I can’t cope

Before I log off, do you see yourself continuing working at the mines? @Captain24 Or is it too much?

Yeah.. I’ll stick it out. @tyme. Once I get myself sorted it’ll be fine. I couldn’t work a job that didn’t give me so much time off. While my days off I spend in bed at the moment, only having a weekend would be too much for me. At least I get all my hours done in a few days. But whatever job I do won’t fix this. It’s about having to go out into the world that I want to keep myself locked away from.

Hey @Captain24 been a while!! Just stopping by to say hi 😊

Hey @Jynx

I just got home from work. You still around?

@Captain24 I am indeeeeeedy! How was work? Or would you rather talk about literally anything else? 😋

Missed ya!

Heeeyyy @Jynx

Ive missed you too.

Work was ok when it warmed up a bit. It was so cold this morning I h and I’m really over it. It’s really affecting my mood. It wasn’t as cold though it was only -3.9 feels like-6.2. That’s the best it’s been for the last couple of days.

What have you been up to?

@Captain24 cold really gets to ya huh? Do you have a hot water bottle or anything you can take with ya?

I've not been up to much really, still working on the decluttering albeit very slowly. Spent most of today pottering, sunbathing, and bapping my new mirror ball in the sunshine 😋

Anything new with you? How are your fur babies?

Turns out I probably have SAD. @Jynx I’m not doing very well. I’ve booked an extra psych appointment so I have to get a medical certificate of my GP so I can have a night off. My psych sent me a beautiful email to keep rereading until I see her. Her term to describe how I am is ‘depleted’ Right this very second I want to hurt myself badly.

Slowly is good it means you can make the right decisions. OMG isn’t it too cold to sunbathe? I have this image of you standing on a chair to reach the mirror ball on the ceiling. I’m guessing I’m wrong! 😜

Nothing new with me. Just lots of therapy stuff.

Im trying to type this with pix on my lap getting in my face and Jett sitting on my shoulder with the rest of his body on my face. They are good though. They miss me when I’m at work. Jetts having trouble with the cold. I have to put a jumper on him.

Hows Trixie and Razz

Hey @Captain24, nice to see you here this evening! I just noticed that you mentioned that you want to hurt yourself bad. So, just checking in with you to see how you can stay safe right now?

Sounds like you have supports coming up soon and a lovely email from your psych! It's cute that you have PIx and Jett to keep you company 🙂

RiverSeal ❤️

@Captain24 aww hun, sounds like things are really intense for you. It's rough to sit with those SH urges, are they becoming a bit much or are you managing to stave off the worst for now?

Haha well I have to kinda stay inside and catch the sunbeam that comes through my front door haha - and the heater and my oodie are never far away!

LOL I mean kinda, but it's on a long string so I can twirl it up and let it unravel whilst throwing shiny lights across my lounge 😋 I will see if I can capture it somehow, though I doubt a photo will do it justice!!

OMG can we see Jett in his jumper - if you get a chance of course, no rush!! The kitties are good, they're yelling at me right now cos it's nearly dinner time!! And Razz always yells at me when it's too cold or when it's raining lol as though I have control over the weather 🤣