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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 7:55 pm AEST

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Hey @rav3n

My morning was ridiculous. It was -5.1 feels like -8.9. I am so over this cold weather. It’s just miserable to be so cold. The only thing is the days are nice and sunny though.

I just got home from work and am heading straight for the shower. It’s so cold.

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 8:20 pm AEST

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I am so down. The weather is really getting to me. It’s in the minuses already and it’s just after 8. I’ve got nothing to give the word ‘depleted’ really fits. I can’t even remember half of the day today. I feel like I just can’t go to work. I have to but just don’t want to. I don’t want to face the world.

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 9:08 pm AEST

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Sorry for doing the wrong thing. I’ll just go to bed

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tymeModerator20 June 2025, 9:22 pm AEST

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Hey @Captain24 , You okay? Sorry, I've just popped in. I've been chasing my tail tonight.

Hope you are okay.

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tymeModerator20 June 2025, 9:23 pm AEST

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Also, what do you mean you've done the wrong thing @Captain24 ?

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 9:27 pm AEST

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No im not ok @tyme. Not even a little bit. I don’t know how to be recovery focussed. I’ve had a hot shower and a warm dinner and gotten into bed. That’s all I’ve got.

You put a spoiler box over my last post so I must have said something wrong. I don’t even know what I did.

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tymeModerator20 June 2025, 9:35 pm AEST

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Hey @Captain24 , No no, it's not 'wrong'. The spoiler tag was added so people get to choose whether they feel up to reading content that is a big heavier.

I'm sorry things are so hard for you. Is it that you are tired after work?

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 9:41 pm AEST

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Yeah. I’m tired really tired. Exhausted. Drained. @tyme but the weather is really affecting me. It hasn’t been this cold for years and even then it didn’t go on for so long. Just random nights. This is every night, well morning actually. I can handle -1 or -2 but constantly being -4 and worse is too much. I didn’t even see the sun today until sometime after 1 I think. I know o was in the training room in the morning but I don’t remember what I did or what time I finished.

I just tried 5 things and it felt like too much pressure.

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tymeModerator20 June 2025, 9:50 pm AEST

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Did the hot shower defrost you at all? @Captain24

You sound exhausted. And you have 2 more nights, right?

We had sunshine here today, so it helps. I was even in short sleeves.

Sounds like so much is going on for you right now.

Even with the 5 things task, if it's too much, as least you gave it a go.

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Captain24Senior Contributor20 June 2025, 9:58 pm AEST

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I was that cold that the hot water actually hurt. I did warm me up a bit though. Warmer than before I got in @tyme

2 more days then one night as I’m calling in sick for the last night. So today was the first day of the block. I have a long way to go. It’s so hard knowing how much more I have to do.

We do have sunny days after the freezing starts. The days look nice but aren’t overly warm. I had the heater on in the truck.

Short sleeves sounds good.

Yeah. I tried. At least I can say that I gave it a go.

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