I can’t cope

Ergh... I'm hearing how draining it is... it's like you want a few days just to turn off so you can reset @Captain24

Well, it's June now.. keep holding on until your admission. We'll be here for you.

I think I really need the admission just to be able to be looked after and cared for. Just switch off. @tyme

Sorry. I missed it. I apologise @AuntGlow

’Dropping anchor’ is a CBT or DBT thing. It’s an Russ Harris thing. It’s about stopping, dropping your anchor and focus on what you are feeling. It’s on YouTube. It’s interesting but it’s not easy.

I just want to be able to figure out what my deep feelings are so I can work through them. I think I’m doing it for my self preservation.

I disassociated on my home from work and ran off the road. I hit a pot hole and that brought

me back

I think it'll be good respite for you. I wish you had PARCs around you. @Captain24 They helped me so much in the past because that's what I needed. Just needed time out to relax and be looked after so I could heal.

Also I should see a couple of friends and also have psych appointments in person. My psych said I really need to be treated with compassion right now to get through all of these med changes. She’s so good for me. It’s the perfect fit @tyme

That's okay! @Captain24

I see, we are on the same page now - this is a really helpful strategy! You're right, it is interesting but not easy. With practice, it does become more accessible though. I am excited to hear about how this works for you over time.

I understand that sense of self-preservation. I can imagine this will shift when your body feels a little safer to allow those deeper feelings in? And practicing strategies like dropping anchor, will help this process.

I really hope you are safe and you are okay now, that would have been very jarring. 💛

hmm yep, that's tough @Captain24 even with research and understanding what SAD, it's hard to know what's next. hopefully your psych can provide you more support around it. and i hope this also means, you can allow yourself to be kinder towards yourself?

i'm going to try binge Ginny and Georgia this weekend... i have no idea where the story left off so this should be interesting. oo what genre is 'the secrets we keep', haven't heard of it before but sounds intriguing.

Hey @Captain24 ,

We chased up the developers about the spoiler tag and they said that the phone interface only provides the basic functions. The spoiler tag is only available on desktops.

Perhaps you can use "TW" instead?

How are you anyway? What was your self-care practice today?

Hopefully having that in the back of my mind I can tell myself that it’s just that it’s winter. Oh and meds changing. It’s like a double whammy but I need to learn to be nicer to myself. @rav3n

I watch the last 2 episodes from last season before I watched it so I knew where it was up to! I hope you enjoy it.

I’ll have a look at the genre. Maybe drama but I’m not sure.

Hey @tyme

Thank you for the feedback. I appreciate it. I use T/W but I’ve had some put into spoiler boxes after. So just thought it’d be good if I could do it myself.

I tried the dropping anchor and came up with nothing. I didn’t feel anything, it’s like I’m numb to everything. ( I don’t think that makes sense) I think I’m doing it wrong. Or putting too much pressure on myself.

Its 0.7 degrees here so as soon as I came home I had a hot shower! Does that count as self care or self preservation?

This numb feeling has gotten to me. It’s uncomfortable and I don’t like it. I’d rather feel something.

I still have passive SI thoughts and extreme SH thoughts.