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I can’t cope

Captain24Senior Contributor16 June 2022, 9:48 pm AEST

I can’t cope

Hi. I’m new and have never been in anything like this before.
I’m really struggling with depression at the moment and just need a place to vent.
there is no reason as to why I feel this way. I just hate myself and feel like I’m an unworthy and useless person. I don’t have a partner or many friends. I feel like I keep pushing them away when I’m down. I’m just not worthy of them. I hate life and just wish I would go to sleep and not wake up. I feel so much emotional pain inside but numb at the same time. None of this makes any sense but it just how I feel.

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Unknown userMember01 Nov 2022, 8:09 pm AEDT

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Sitting with you @Captain24 ❤️❤️

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Captain24Senior Contributor01 Nov 2022, 9:18 pm AEDT

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I’m sorry about tonight @Former-Member. I’ve taken my meds and I’m going to go to bed. I have to get up early tomorrow for work.

Thank you for you support tonight. I really do appreciate it

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Unknown userMember01 Nov 2022, 9:22 pm AEDT

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NEVER be sorry ❤️ I really enjoy our chats, whether they are light or heavy. I hope that you have a peaceful sleep and we can chat again tomorrow.

Sending virtual sleepy vibes, goodnight @Captain24 xx

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Captain24Senior Contributor01 Nov 2022, 9:50 pm AEDT

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Sorry it was so heavy. I haven’t been this bad for a while.

Good night @Former-Member

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Unknown userMember02 Nov 2022, 6:40 pm AEDT

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Hey @Captain24,

Just checking in to see how you are tonight?

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Captain24Senior Contributor02 Nov 2022, 7:59 pm AEDT

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Thank you for checking in @Former-Member. I’ve just gotten home from work.

I feel really unstable. I have strong SH urges and strong suicidal thoughts. At least they are thoughts and not the urge like last night. I also pack away my source this morning and only kept out a couple of days.

I feel like I’m a really bad person. I shouldn’t have these thoughts. I shouldn’t think those things about my family even if it’s how they are. I just want it to be over. I don’t want to be a horrible person and I don’t want to be me anymore.

I emailed my nurse this morning before I went to work and told her about last night. She was concerned that after our session I might be unsettled. She doesn’t want to do another one like that until I’m more stable.

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Unknown userMember02 Nov 2022, 8:02 pm AEDT

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Hey @Captain24,

I will email you xx

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Shaz51Senior Contributor02 Nov 2022, 8:06 pm AEDT

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Sitting with you my friend @Captain24 🥰

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tymeModerator02 Nov 2022, 9:13 pm AEDT

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Heya @Captain24 ,

Sorry that things haven't been so well the last 2 nights? I'm just catching up with what's happening now.

Please know you are not alone. I hope you can reach out to your MH team to let them know what is going on.

Hugs, tyme

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Captain24Senior Contributor02 Nov 2022, 9:25 pm AEDT

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Thank you so much @tyme.

Ive just replied to the email that @Former-Member sent.

I have a therapist appointment on Monday and an app with my MH nurse on Tuesday. I work tomorrow and then the next 3 nights so I’m hoping that will be enough distraction to get me through.

I’m having really dark thoughts.

I’m sorry

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