I can’t cope

The mud is horrendous @tyme I can understand the toxic sludge as you have no idea what was in the flood water

I never knew flood waters had so much mud in it! @Captain24 .

Only when I saw it creeping up my driveway did I realise!

Should have seen my car when I drove through it @tyme

Actually, when I drove through the muddy water, my car came out quite okay @Captain24 . I tell you where it is the worst? When I'm on the freeway and a truck drive past! That's when my car looks sooooo dirty!

How far up was the water when you drove through it? Mine was half way up the tyres.

Mine was halfway up the door! @tyme. and rushing really fast. I really shouldn’t have gone through

Ay caramba!! That's sooooo bad! Now this forum-parent of yours has to tell you 'Never to do it again!'

@Captain24

Halfway up the door....*hand on head, shaking head

Forum-parent! I’m probably older than you! Lol. Yeah I’m not in any hurry to do it again. I was shaking by the time I got to the other side. @tyme

Hehehe @Captain24 - perhaps you are older, but I'll still have to be your forum parent here - "No more driving through flood waters!"

When are you returning?

I know this might sound bad, but as much as your family is 'toxic', their toxicity may be a good distraction for you so that you are not isolated at home? Do you think so?

We are heading back on Monday. @tyme.

It’s been a roller coaster. Thanks m loving being in the sun and the sea. Even just watching it. But they bring me down. Last night I had strong SH urges that I haven’t really had recently. It wasn’t just a thought that would pass by.

The answer to you question is I don’t know.

I do know I have learnt a lot about myself these last few days. So much that I now feel I will make it through. I know that there will be ups and downs (at the moment I’m both) but I can see the other side.

I had a friend say to me that when she went through it she came out a better person and that she wouldn’t change her journey as it made her who she is today

Awwwww hugs @Captain24 - so true.

Accept what life throws at you and you'll come out a better person. Even if it means looking at ice-cream vans!

I have great faith that you will come out of this a better person (not saying that you aren't already). wink wink**

You're so awesome.

I'm gonna be knocking off soon. I'll speak to you soon though...

Please give Pix a big hug from me.