I can’t cope

I know it can feel hard to connect and talk to people for you, but from the receiving end I have found you very easy to connect with. I hope you can share some of those feelings of connectedness for yourself that you give to others.

Poor Pixie and poor you. How did you know she was sick? I have such a fear of my dog getting sick and me not knowing.

@Captain24

I hope Pix is not in too much pain. Doesn't sound nice @Captain24 .

One mistake I made that i want to share so you don't make the same mistake, is that when I found out, I spent a good amount of my remaining time and energy on trying to 'detach' from my clinician, thinking it would make things easier. Instead, I go more upset and angrier, as well as wasted the precious time I had left in therapy with him.

Looking back, I think I would have wanted to accept the inevitable, acknowledge my hurt, then make the most of the the remaining time.

I know you can do it @Captain24 . I'm sure it is hard to find a good GP that you can connect with, let alone one in your area. But as I said, maybe this is a step towards a new journey for you.

tyme

You learn to read them. Pixie didn’t want to play as much, she is sleeping lots and the blood on her butt was the biggest sign. I don’t think she is in much pain as she isn’t panting lots or doing the downward dog stretch.

I find it really hard to make connections @Former-Member . That is why you rarely see me on social threads and mainly on my own or only a couple of others.

I will make the most of my time left @tyme. As much as I’m hurt I still need a lot of support and need to keep focusing on getting better. Hopefully I’ll be in a better place by then and can just take it in my stride. My other fear is that they don’t communicate with my nurse. But I do confidence that my GP will leave me in good hands.

I am confident of that too @Captain24 . Having a plan in place before she leaves it important. Are you able to book in at least weekly appointments with her from now until she leaves?

You are a very good doggy mum ❤️

And as for making connections, you don’t need to make a lot, for example on the social threads, but just ones that make you feel good. That’s all anybody needs 😊. I understand that you have a difficult time with connections, but I think you do amazingly. @Captain24

At the moment it is mostly weekly depending on work @tyme. So I’ll keep it that way. I’m sure she will help me with the transition.

In the past, I booked 6 sessions in advance. As soon as I got my roster, I made my bookings @Captain24 .

I'm sure she will follow through. She seems like such an awesome, caring GP

That’s a good idea @tyme. I should be able to work that out. I have my roster until the end of 2023! Thanks for the suggestion

She has been amazing!

I'm wrapping up now @Captain24 . Hope to speak to you in the next few days sometime.

You can do it! I know you can. You are in a much much better space than what I was when I was 'abandoned'.

I’m not ok today. I feel scared, anxious and really low. I’m irritable and agitated.