I can’t cope

That’s it @Ru-bee. The harder you try the worse it gets.

I’ve just been taking whatever they dish out. I can’t stand up for myself because I’m just useless and know that they a right.

They say they do but they really don’t. @tyme. I’ve been discriminated against at time for my MH

I can’t report it or it puts a bigger target on my back. I just have to take it. Maybe tonight I’ll be on something that I can manage to do right. 🤞

Hugs for you @Captain24

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@Captain24 wrote:

A couple of weeks ago I just couldn’t get anything right. I was ridiculed over the radio. It was relentless and felt

like a personal attack. Hence my anxiety in going to work and hating it. It’s the fear of it all happening again. That’s where my loss of confidence and hate has come from.

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Oh hun!! I feel like I vaguely recall you talking about this on the forums? I may have missed it. In any case, it's no wonder you're feeling this way! No one should have to deal with bullying in the workplace, and it's even more challenging when one is already vulnerable.

I don't suppose it's something you could make a formal complaint about? Especially because it is (potentially?) having an ongoing impact on the quality of your work, which they should definitely give a crap about!! You deserve acknowledgement and amends, and you deserve justice.

You may just have to assertive to these people so that they put their head down @Captain24

It might only take a comment from you for them to wake up to the discrimination - I don't been a rude or sarcastic comment, but a comment to help them realise that it's not okay to say those things over the radio.

Discrimination against you because of a mental health condition is prohibited by law @Captain24 you might have grounds for some kind of legal action. You do NOT deserve to be treated this way. Imagine it resulted in a hospitalisation? That is so incredibly not okay and you may not even be the only person in that workplace who is facing these issues.

I get what you are both saying @Jynx @tyme but I just have to deal with it. It’s a mine site so if I have MH issues it raises a red flag.

Im just about to go in.

Thank you both for thinking of me.

Have a great shift. Look after yourself @Captain24

@Captain24 good luck darlin, sending some strength and oodles of hugs to get you through 🫂🫂

I’m just about to go to sleep @Jynx @tyme. The shift went okish. I still have no confidence and couldn’t do it right. One guy made a comment thinking he was king shit which actually cut me really deeply. Maybe I’m just too sensitive. But I think right now I need acceptance and care not arseholes. I only have tonight to go and then I have 5 days off.

I just have to drive sensibly and not the way I have been. I need to wake up to myself and stop being such a loser. I’m just a stupid idiot. An absolute waste of space and time. I don’t know why you both bother with me. I don’t deserve it.

Hey @Captain24 You absolutely do need care and acceptance right now, and honestly I don't think any of us ever need arseholes. It sounds like the culture at your workplace is pretty toxic and I wonder if any of your other co-workers are struggling with it too, I'd bet some are. These things are absolutely incidents that you could (and should if you feel able) report. It's not okay in any workplace.

I can hear how hard it is to see the good in yourself right now, and like I said yesterday it's still so clear to me. The words we speak (or type) about ourselves have real power. I know you've been trying hard with this and that it's gotten more difficult recently, but it can make a difference showing yourself kindness right now. What I can see from this assessment of yourself is that you're a person who has had the strength to continually reach out and be vulnerable and honest with your emotions. Despite all of the ups and the downs you keep on going and that shows so much resilience. You even have the strength to reach out when that voice internally is saying that you don't deserve to, that's huge.

I hope you get a good sleep, just one more shift to get through.