I can’t cope

I haven’t been out of my pj’s for 2 days @Bow. I’ve put home and away on as I haven’t watched it so I’m behind.

I haven’t showered for 2 days. All my warning signs are there but my go to strategies I’ve tried or feel too hard.

I have an appointment with my psych on Tuesday and I feel like I’m failing her. I’ve even tried being positive but that’s not working either. I’m sliding down a slippery slope.

Hi @MJG017

Ive been here before and I’ve been worse. I was in hospital in August as I was in crisis. I’m not that bad at the moment.

Things have improved I’m just hoping that this is a bump. But right now it feels like a big bump that I’m not sure where it’s headed.

I have looked at my life and have made minor changes which has helped.

I feel like I have turned a positive corner since being out of hospital but just not in the last couple of days.

Thanks for reminding me I’m not a failure that I’m just struggling right now. I just now need to try and believe it.

Thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate it

Tonight is getting harder and harder.

Hey @Captain24 ,

What's happening for you?

How'd you go today?

Hey @tyme

You’re here late.

I feel like I'm sinking into that deep hole and I can’t stop it.

I’ve done diamond art, Lego, resin and polymer clay. I’ve tried so hard.

I haven’t gotten out of my pyjamas for 2 days and I have t had a shower.

All the warning signs are there and I can’t stop them.

Im scared.

Yes, I'm not supposed to be on, but I thought I'd pop by @Captain24

How about we make an agreement. You go and have a quick shower and then message me when you are done?

We can chat then?

Ok @tyme.

I do know that struggle of not believing those positives we hear about ourselves @Captain24. Its so hard to accept sometimes. It sounds like you're having one of them now and it seems like quite a bad one. Is there anything in particulr that has you so upset right now, or is it just all a bit overwhelming tonight?

Do you have any plan in place for times like this to stop it spiraling too far down? We're here with you if you need it right now and more than willing to listen and support you however we can.

Try to focus on the positive changes you've already made and those times inbetween these bumps... even the big ones.... its still just a bump. Focus on those improvements you've made and the ones you will make. Think in terms of your progress since leaving hospital, and not just the past few days.

I’ve had a mindful shower, put on clean pj’s and brushed my teeth and hair @tyme

I at least feel clean.

Good on you @Captain24 .

I recognise the effort it took to have that shower. Well done.

Was it warm where you were today?