I can’t cope

I did it and with confidence!!! @Ru-bee. Go me!!

It was really good. There was on quote that I didn’t think lined up. But I forgot to write it down. It obviously hadn’t come from someone with a mental illness.

I don’t think I’m angry @NatureLover. I know that I do have an anger management problem though. They seem to think I am so I just have to listen to them. They are the professionals and I’m just the patient.

Well done @Captain24

You should be really proud of yourself.

I love how if you post negatively you’re told it’s not recovery oriented but a positive post isn’t worth the time!

Yep @Captain24 been feeling that alot lately.

Thanks for the acknowledgment @Snowie . I really appreciate it. It’s something that doesn’t seem to happen often around here.

Im hearing you @Bow Positive posts mean more than negative ones. It means we have done well at something or proud of an achievement. They should be noticed too. A little encouragement goes a long way. It’s a big deal that we allow ourselves to feel proud.

It's a huge accomplishment @Captain24

We do need to be proud of the 'wins', whether they are small or large.

Those wins are what help keep us going.

Hey @Captain24 @Bow ,

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Please know it is not our intention, and I want to point out all the times we have celebrated and acknowledged the good days, as well as the not-so-good days.

I'm sure you know there are days when even we, as humans, do not get to everything we want to get to.

I'm interested to hear your thoughts. Alternatively, you are welcome to provide formal feedback via this process: https://www.sane.org/about-sane/policies/feedback-and-complaints-policy

I spoke up in front of everyone. I introduced myself to a few people. I made small talk. I participated in candid chat at the start when there was only 5 people in the room. I had a sense of confidence that I don’t know where it came from. I did a whole lot of positive self-talk on my way out there.

I can’t even put into words the way I felt.

I do have a question though.

Is it normal to have really deep dark thoughts but then be sort of ok but slip

back into the thoughts? I’m not sure if I’m making sense. I can do things like today but 2 nights ago life was that terrible that I had a strange day where I felt like everyone was watching me. The night before I partook in maladaptive behaviour.

Is it a good thing? Is it a bad thing? It’s confusing me?

Please don’t take it as a personal attack @tyme. Both you and Jynx are mostly good at it. I get that things slip through and I get that negative posts are

more important but encouragement goes a long way too.

Also can you please read my previous post if you have time.

Congrats @Captain24 . That's huge! I somehow feel that this sort of stuff is what is going to help in your recovery. That is, the desire to share. (If you know what I mean). Please don't think I'm pressuring you though.

Are you still doing the cert you started?

Also, with the thoughts and stuff.. it's an interesting one. You'll need to take it up with your treating team I reckon as I can't give you answers to your questions.

However, I can share that from my experiences, I have SI ALL THE TIME... it's weird because I have no intention to act. When I raised this with my team back then, they said it's part of my MH condition.

So yes, maybe you can have these thoughts but be okay?

But if you feel it's not normal to have these thoughts and feel okay, only then do you end up in maladaptive behaviours?? This is only my thinking.

What do you think?