I can’t cope

Please don’t give up on me @tyme

I won't. I keep to my word unless something happens to me. I've told you from the beginning that we are walking this road together @Captain24 🙂

I, as well as the whole community, are here for you.

I do make it hard sometimes. @tyme

Last night really scared I don’t know what happened. Today it feels like it was a nightmare.

I’m tired of being told I’m angry. The more I get told then I get angry. Everything is blamed on anger. SH is anger. ED is anger. Excess sleeping is anger.

Any thoughts on what we can do next time to better support you when you are feeling like how you were feeling last night? @Captain24

We want to make sure we do what's right for you.

I’m not sure @tyme. Maybe not abandon

me. I’m hoping that it never happens again. If it does happen then that’s a whole new ball game that I’ll have to face.

I am sorry about it.

Does it change things? I’m hoping not.

I just wasn't sure, but I'm glad I am able ask you. @Captain24

It did feel a little 'different' last night, and I wasn't sure what would help.

I'm glad it's a little better today.

It did hurt and it did scare me @tyme. I am ashamed.

I feel really anxious and on edge right now.

How are things with you?

Oh and I’m not getting email notifications…

Thanks for reporting that @Captain24 I will pass it on 😉

Just been catching up on things, sounds like it's been quite a rollercoaster for you! I got some big squishy hugs here for you if you want em?

🫂🫂

Here to chat about stuff too, saw you got a lot going on. Anger can be super confusing, and it's such a stigmatised emotion too so I think it's not unusual for us to have a bit of a funky relationship with it. Or will I be seeing you in PGC soon?

Hey @Jynx

I need lots of squishy hugs right now.

The last 24 hrs have been like never before. Some of it really scary.

I wish they would all stop with the anger thing. It makes it so much worse. Even when I’m not angry they tell me I am.

Ill be on the PGC

@Captain24 yippee! I will see you in there then.

I can imagine it's a lot like being told to 'calm down' - almost like it is removing your sense of agency around you're emotions. Like 'You feel this way, and your own experience of your emotions does not matter.'

I am curious about why they might be saying this to you... Do you think it's worth chatting to them about what it is that has prompted such a commentary on your emotional state?