I can’t cope

I really can’t cope with life today. I didn’t sleep well. Now I have to face another 12.5 hrs of work. I just don’t want to do anything but curl up in a ball and die. Will this ever lift?

Hi @Captain24,

I can really hear the pain in your post - sitting with you and understanding how tough this is for you.

I am going to email you to check in around your safety - if you could respond when you can it would be much appreciated.

Big hugs,

FloatingFeather

Feel yer pain @Captain24 hope your safe and that you manage work tonight.

@Captain24 Hoping that your night was ok? And that you sleep well today 💕

Thanks @Bow hope you are doing a little better.

The shift went well but I’m really really depressed.

Usually work is my safe place and I cope well. This block has been one massive roller coaster. I’ve gone from having a fantastic day to attempting to take my life to angry to depression and everything in between.

It’s raining. It’s cold. It’s miserable and so am I. I just want to curl up in a ball and forget I even exist. I feel like all I’m doing at the moment is existing and not living. I don’t know if I have the strength or the will to keep going.

Sitting down next to you @Captain24

Hi @Captain24 ,

Have you been able to reach out to your MH team? It seems like at this time, you need more support.

I'm sorry today is also hard for you.

Speak soon, tyme

Hi @tyme

I don’t want to bother them with my failures again. They are trying and I keep failing. I’m just a massive let down to everyone.

In this moment, what do you think will be helpful? @Captain24

I went for a walk yesterday and today. Did you manage to take Pixie out today? I also went to San Churro and had Churros and Choc gelato with fresh strawberries - spoilt! I should've taken some photos.