Jude’s Jungle

I love your amazing knitting @Judi9877 !

The blanket reminds me of my baby blanket.

It is so good to hear how much purpose, and enjoyment you are receiving out of your hobby.

It shows us and reminds us of the purpose of engaging in meaningful activities.

tyme

@Judi9877

This is so powerful: "in my jungle, I let the angel win over the devil that was my sick mental state and I got through it."

Sounds like your style of knitting through all your challenges has been helpful and helped you and the people who end up with your precious creations.

Ciao Bella

Apple

Hi @Judi9877,

I really enjoyed ready this post particularly @Judi9877. I love how you have found the connection between doing something just for you and a lift in your spirit. What a light bulb moment!

What you say makes so much sense I think it is a great piece of advice for a lot of people. Making yourself a priority is so important. I've always thought if I don't look out for myself who's going to? It doesn't take away from all the amazing charity work you do and time you give to others so graciously but, at least for the moment, you realise you make yourself number one for a change. What a great point you have made!

Your blanket is looking gorgeous and I think it is a great visual reminder of the importance of self care and doing something nice for ourselves.

Hope you enjoyed the chicken and mushroom risotto you had from the local pasta restaurant. I love risotto too. Hope the one you make on the weekend is just as tasty.

Warm wishes,

FloatingFeather

Thanks for including me in your updates @Judi9877

I love hearing about your day and what you have been up too.

Take care my friend 💜

Yes @Judi9877 , I agree with @Snowie thankyou for including me. It's a privilege to follow along through the highs & lows & all the inbetweens that is Jude's Jungle.

Awesome work @Judi9877 . I love your knitting. I can't believe the entire blanket took you 1 week. That is very fast. I feel exactly the same about my crochet. It is a coping mechanism. I find it allows me to 'freeflow' with my thoughts, whilst also having something else to focus on. I don't really notice my thoughts when I'm crocheting, & that means I don't have any reaction or judgement about them. It can be really calming & positive mental health activity. I also find that it's a timing thing.... Similar to what you were describing in your second post.... It must be the right thing, at the right time! Otherwise something feels slightly off & it's not as enjoyable. Excellent job of listening to yourself.

maddison

Good afternoon @maddison @Snowie @FloatingFeather @TAB @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Former-Member @hanami @MDT @Former-Member @Daisydreamer @Oaktree @BPDSurvivor @Eve7 @Faith-and-Hope @Jynx @Jacques @Meowmy and all forumites joining me in the jungle today. Thanks and welcome!

Today is party day in the jungle for me as it’s my birthday so I’ve been enjoying the day doing my knitting and crochet and spending time with my housemate/

best friend. I’ve been checking out my social media pages as well which has been good. My day has been pretty good all things considered with me purchasing a new pair of pyjamas and some crochet hooks which I really needed so I’ve been pretty happy overall. I woke up to 3 degrees at 7:30am and have managed to keep myself occupied and busy for the whole day which has been good especially since I didn’t take my sleeping tablet last night as I’m trying to handle the problem on my own.

To think, a month ago I was admitted to the local psych ward for a period of 2 weeks because I wasn’t coping with life and needed a meds change which I did get. Life on a psych ward was boring at times for me and quite isolating as I could only do my knitting and my crochet in my bedroom alone and was reliant on the nursing staff to keep my phone charged as well. Having dinner at 5pm was hard as it was quite early for me to eat as I usually eat dinner after 6pm and I got sick of the same old meals in the end. I’ve realised now how lucky i am not to need hospital treatment or the treatment of PARCS as I can see it being very restrictive at times even though it was for my own good. I’m now in a better headspace mentally and feel proud of myself for not needing the services of my psychologist over the past month either as I’ve been able to handle life and it’s relevant dramas on my own with limited help. I think I’m getting stronger mentally in that although I have times of panic and anxiety and uncertainty, I’m able to get through them and accept that these episodes will soon pass and I’ll survive them someway somehow. I may not enjoy the experience at times but I can get through them and that’s a massive achievement especially when I often think too much or doubt myself and my capabilities to do this which is often. I also put things off which is something I need to work on and accept that this is an issue for me and need to deal with. Fear of failure is a big thing right now as I’ve been to putting off sitting a test for a course that I’ve got to do. If I don’t sit the test, I’ll never stand a chance of possibly being accepted into the chosen course so I’m my own worst enemy at this point in the game. Again, I just have to do this and go from there. I know when I was in hospital I couldn’t put things off forever like HD ding over my knitting at 10pm or taking tablets so this is a similar thing except that my possible future career is at stake. Again, big choices have consequences and that’s something I have to deal with and face up to.

Okay. Time for me to go and order in some Thai food for dinner and then follow it with cake for dessert. Enjoy your night and thanks for reading this entry.

Judi9877🥳💐

Happy happy birthday my darling @Judi9877 😀🥰❤🎂🍰🎈🎉🎊🎊🎉🎈

@Judi9877 happy birthday,sweetheart.Thank you for the entry.Big congratulations on your significant progress.So proud of you. You have done remarkable on very difficult areas of mental strength. I am sure you will continue to progress and get stronger and eventually achieve what you want. Take care. Well done.