I don't know what to do..

Hi @Former-Member,

welcome to the Sane forums. I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling right now. It's so difficult when you feel you have to put on a brave face and you don't feel comfortable telling anyone what you are going through.

I was like you - I struggled for years with depression and did not think I could be helped. To tell the truth I didn't even realise there was a name for how I was feeling. I thought I was just a bit of a pessimist and needed to get on with things! I did not even realise I was clinically depressed and needed treatment until I really fell apart and had a breakdown.

I'm so glad you have sought help from the professionals- that is what they are there for. In your situation, I would be tempted to go back to the psychiatrist who prescribed your medication and talk to them directly about what's going on. There may be something they can do to help. Is your main problem anxiety?

Sometimes medications take a lot of tweaking. I know it's difficult, but you have to believe that it will be worth it in the end.

Is there someone you are close to who you could confide in about what you are going through? Sometimes it can feel like a big relief to tell someone what is really happening.... I tried to cover up all my feelings for too long and it was exhausting. When I finally told people about my depression, I felt relieved.

Hi @Former-Member and welcome to the forum. I hear ya. I have had some pretty stressful times on new medications and once I even struggled on for 6 weeks with medication induced psychosis but was too unwell and had no insight to go back to the doctor to tell her.

I reckon we know, I reckon we can trust ourselves to know if a new medication is not working and while the doctor has said give it another month - (and I suggest you do that for 'compliance' sake) If it still not helping then ask to be titred off (or managed off). I think that HOPELESSNESS can be bought on my medication, that is why many product disclosure statm,ents mention suicidal ideation as a major side effect and if that is the case it should be stopped.

What works for some doesn't work for everyone. For isntance anything that commmits to the adrenaline/nor adrenaline for me sends me wired crazy buzzy, anxious and gives me intrusive thoughts. (suicidal)

If you really really think this is dangerous for you - ask to come of it. However, if it is just unplesant, unpleasant can be coped with for another few weeks for a longer term gain, eh?

It is worth talking to the new psychologist about the medications and hopelessness too. So glad you are here. And it is the right place to say 'I am struggling".

Hi @Former-Member,

I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling overwhelmed at the moment.

I think we've all felt like giving up at one point or another. However, I'm concerned when you say "giving up", are you referring to self-harm or suicidal ideation?

If you are in distress @Former-Member it's really important to speak to someone about it. Here are some numbers for crisis services if you haven't already got them:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

If in immediate danger: 000

If you check your inbox, I'm emailing you now.

@Former-Member,

how are you feeling today? I hope you are doing a bit better.... please do not give up on your recovery because the psychologist wasn't exactly what you wanted. It was not wrong of you to want to leave and I'm so glad you had a friend with you. That must have been a comfort for you.

Are you staying with a friend?

I think a lot of us here on Sane forums have been through difficult times where we have felt hopeless... but these feeling don't last and there is always hope.

Can you go back to your doctor and maybe ask for a medication review? Perhaps they will give you something extra for a short time to make you feel less anxious?

Hugs to you.