Trying makes it worse

Wow @EternalFlower well done you! You are a superstar!

Hey @EternalFlower

How are you?

How are you feeling now that the 'dust has settled.'

You must feel very relieved. Do you know who the new cm will be? Do you have any input?

Hmm, not much going on here. I feel like I am in a kind of limbo. I'm also waiting for my own dust to adjust! I'm not moving forward or backward. Part of me might be relearning... Part of me might be decaying & ready to fall off?! Oh dear, that really scares me & I didn't realise until I wrote it. Must take small steps.

I wonder who the actress is in Colony that you like. Is it the main one? She is good character. Different for female role. She is feminine & fearful, & also a leader & uncompromising.

The series has slowed down a little. I'm on ep 4.

I've started watching another one as well, called limetown. It's about a town of 300+ people that vanished. I like Jessica Biel.

Perhaps you have some advice on how to be ok despite the fear? Or a friendly hello is ok too!

Hope things are ok for you.

maddison

Hey @maddison

I wander if the actress I like is minor? Her name is Kathleen Rose Perkins IRL. Is it a female driven show? I love shows with good female characters. I'm watching a show with Laura Dern. I'm really mesmerised by her on screen, she's an awesome presence.

I am so sorry u feel vulnerable, I don't know if it helps but for me with fear I don't overcome it but I am just trying to be present for one second in a sensation which gives maybe reprieve.

In our class we experimented with scents which I want to try, and I use ice 🧊 or cold water to shake my head out of pain. It sounds cruel but just for a minute. I'm sorry if not helpful

It is a bit slow... no new cm yet, am I in no man's land? Til assigning of a new one I get a call from a random cm every day. Today's was friendly and seemed caring. I try and hope they care. Thank u so much for checking in...,xx

Love Ur support and girl power @Appleblossom

How are u?

I haven't meet sleeping too good sadly, the weekends are hard as I enc up sleeping a lot sometimes all day, and feeling yuck about it.

I live alone and all my friends have families but me. Weekends are their busy time. I'm very lonely on weekends

Hope all are well @maddison @Appleblossom @TAB @Eve7

Hi @EternalFlower thanks for the reply.

You're welcome. I'm sorry things have been stressful for you. I think the new cm will be good change. My sleep is terrible too. And yes I understand the feeling of also feeling down about it.

Will write to you tomorrow, or soon. It's past 1am, brush teeth & bed.... Or tv?..

This is a quick hello!

Good morning @EternalFlower . I hope this weekend is better for you. Are there any activities you enjoy doing?

Thank you @EternalFlower

Atm I have the dreaded lergy again. It started on Wednesday and I got confirmation of a Covid close contact, even tho my 2 RAT tests are negative. Not to worry. I tend to get it mildly, well mild compared to most other things in my life.

I like your discussion about female characters. When I was young there was much less understanding about "it" around. Good to be a part of the changes and hear the discussion.

@maddison Hey!. I just love your phrase ..."dust to adjust" hee hee. Good one!

Hey @Appleblossom

Oh dear, not the dreaded lergy. Thankfully it seems to be mild for you if it is covid. Stay warm! I haven't had it, that I know of.

Yes, when I was younger there was really only super woman, or is it wonder women that were out superheros. I remember seeing The Last Kiss Goodnight - now I can't remember her name! But I love her, the male actor is Morgan Freeman I think. Anyway, that was my introduction into female action Heroes. I thought it was brilliant. Thank goodness times have changed & now females (& all minorities for that matter) are becoming much more mainstream. There are some things, as a society, where we can be thankful that we have progressed. Much better for the young girls growing up today.

I'm thrilled you appreciate my phrase..haha.. Sometimes I like to really think about what I mean when writing& that one happened to rhyme! I will have to use it - total permission to use it too.

@EternalFlower how are you?

Your advice on coping with fear was excellent, thankyou. I wasn't brave enough to try the water on head idea. I ended up being present with my emotion - I hadn't read your message yet.

It was difficult & lasted a while, maybe an hour. Eventually my body let it go. I was a little shocked, as it actually felt like it disappeared completely & the time was maybe slightly shorter than usual. I don't know if it means anything, however, I wanted to acknowledge it, rather than overlook as I would usually do. Small victories!

Reading your advice later on, was a kind of confirmation to me. Thankyou!

I looked up Kathleen Rose Perkins. Yes, she is minor role. Her character is one of the most interesting on the show. She plays straight person, however there are possibly quite subtle clues that there may be more to her than meets the eye. She might end up being one of the 'revolutionaries' or maybe even the head person. Which basically means you have solved the whole show for me & I'm way ahead of other viewers now. Haha.

Part of the premise thus far, is the search for an elusive radical called Geronimo. Now I'm thinking that she might be him. It is on tonight Viceland 11.55pm. I also haven't seen the aliens yet.

Laura Dern is a powerful actress. I enjoyed Enlightened series, & her movie The Tale.

Kind regards,

maddison