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Trying makes it worse

EternalFlowerSenior Contributor17 Mar 2022, 10:12 pm AEDT

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Unknown userMember14 June 2022, 8:39 pm AEST

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Sweet dreams @Former-Member 🌙

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EternalFlowerSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 12:08 am AEST

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Hi @Former-Member @TAB @Former-Member @Appleblossom @tyme

I have had a rough weekend and a lot of my offline supports haven't been availible

It makes it hard.

My Dr was meant to send me a medical exception letter for jobseeker on Friday and did not, so now it's expired and threats to cut off payments. Oh well.

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TABSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 12:39 am AEST

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Yeah thats a bugger hey @EternalFlower keep onto them
Ive got in trouble the same way in past then make a bigger mess to get out of just easier to get cert in first place. Job network only interest is getting funding in on yr behalf and not giving it back out. Nasty horrible people
New govt not changing things either now heard today.

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EternalFlowerSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 12:59 am AEST

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hey @TAB how was Ur move?

Thanks, I have re emailed my Dr and hope he'll get onto it first thing.

I had a bit of a scary time this week as my dad showed up at my place out of blue angry and threatening, luckily he left but was bit scary.

I am looking forward to having a better week.

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TABSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 1:08 am AEST

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Hi @EternalFlower um been here since last Tuesday morning now. Mostly positive. Have set a few traps for myself, but got a few things in progress. Anyway will know more in next few days. Thank God for centrelink else Id be stuffed lately.
Have applied for loan to compensate for bond payment etc fingers crossed
Friends been supportful. Lived here before but left like 7 years ago now, and a few things changed traffic wise so still finding feet again a bit
Should have a list for tomorrow
Think mainly trying old regular walking track again Walking is my main plan back to health atm. Been good with that this week. Am sore but good sore.
Why would your father visit you?
I had issues with mine. Sort of easier now he has passed. Didn't think of him at all over last week just realised

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EternalFlowerSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 1:25 am AEST

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Hi @TAB I think day by day it will become familiar again...I hope u settle in quickly.

That's beautiful Ur friends are showing support. Moving takes a lot, mentally.

I hope u feel 👍

Was it stressful moving or not too bad? How do u like the new space?

I also love going walking 🚶‍♀️ or used to, it is very soothing. Good on u for walking last week. Will also be a nice way to get used to new environment.

Interesting u mention re Ur dad.

My dad is about 70. He told me when he came that he thinks he will die in 5 years, so no point dealing with his mental health or really trying to improve his life. He's very negative and gloomy.

My car was broken and I asked him over phone for advice. He started driving to me to help but I did not want this, I just asked one question about jump starting. He then left me angry voice mails saying no one else could fix it, he knows about cars and I should be grateful he's coming. I told him not to come. He started screaming and ranting and came anyway. It was difficult. He seems to take over and bombard, rather than respect my wishes.

I got him to leave and fixed the car myself.

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TABSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 1:29 am AEST

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Im going to get up and reply on laptop @EternalFlower I need a drink anyway

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Unknown userMember20 June 2022, 1:30 am AEST

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Big hugs to you all. Thankfully I’m home, after being persistent. 💖

I can’t believe what happened tonight.

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TABSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 1:46 am AEST

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..sounds how my father used to be sometimes @EternalFlower he even said same things but lived for another 20 odd years lol

yeah moving was way more complicated than I imagined. had been in 2 br house for long enough to stop worrying about moving, so had surrounded myself with rooms full of junk, so was going from big space to very small space, yeah bit of a shock, I had it so comfortable at other place .Will get there. Walking is good thing to do

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TABSenior Contributor20 June 2022, 1:48 am AEST

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.. not sure what you mean @Former-Member hope you are okay

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