Trying makes it worse

Hi @TAB it was so stupid of me but i didnt know that...i. Future would know now!

I had just finished seeing my dr and was really stressed and hust went home as i didnt think i had an option. The racv man did say that it was lucky as engine didnt die and still working. Lucky for sure and i hope it is all ok.

I was not in a great headspace after therapy and didnt think too straight about how serious it was.

Then i was panicking worst case scenarios so idk i hope it is ok.

I am reliant on car and pretty broke atm so was a bit stressful. I couldn't pay for therapy

They said he has raised his prices as well, by 30 dollars. But i complained and said i need notice for this and they returned it to the old price.

Hi @tonys we miss u !

Hey there @outlander @Appleblossom @chibam @Shaz51 @Oaktree @TAB @Zoe7 @Owlunar @Bunniekins @StuF @RGB

Hope my melby friends are doing ok, it is so cold and windy.

How was ur week?

I was trying to go to hospital but was told i had to wait til my own dr is back..he is back now. Im having a hard feq nights settling in to all the uncertainty.

sorry things not good for you atm @EternalFlower

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Hello @EternalFlower,

This Melby guy is warm enough.

I'm starting to feel better after my medication issues.

I had a setback today. I'm hoping things will get better.

Good luck with all the medical fun and games.

Hi @RGB i have medication issues too and that must have been hard. Good u are feeling better though, and warm! Not nice when medication impacts our lives negatively

It is still super cold here. I went to the library today and have been trying to lay low. I am feeling a bit off this weekend

@EternalFlower ❤️

No good running out of oil but great you had assist. @EternalFlower

Oooh the things we need to know before we have kids. More than just cars ... Mind boggles.

At least you are doing your best.

Finally some work has began on my plumbing. It has taken months ....

@outlander @Zoe7 Hugs ... all 3 of us

I miss you too @tonys

@Appleblossom glad plumbers finally came and some steps forward...good to make progress thank u, i needed to hear that from another person...

I had a lot of shame that i was so stupid but i didnt know...i had such a hard day was trying to not fall apart and had stopped eating from anxiety....was all a lot. I feel like a kid learning and trying. My dad would be abusive and call me stupid andthat i ruin everything etc, re car but he also wouldnt help me if i asked him. I asked him for help re the oil and all i got was drama but no clear help.

So i did my best. Each day we gotta do good for ourselves.

I stocked up on food tonight with a big shop. Because of my knees and back i cant carry too much so ive had to take it all from the car very slowly. But it feels good to have stuff.

I was mindful i may go to hospital so i focussed on tinned stuff....new life hack. If i bought things that need to be used up it might be a waste.

How expensive are things atm? Skyrocketing 🚀🚀🚀

@EternalFlower Your dad sounds like a "case" beyond description. Difficult for you.

Often people get into the drama of giving lots of stuff to kids, but they do not need that much, more they need guidance. It can be a big he man ... con job ... I am providing all this ... do what I want and all the keeping up with the Joneses etc ... the important things get lost in it all... and women can buy in ... and defend their man ... and have all sorts of negative interactions with other women. I am writing about my aunt married to the rich dude ... and how she behaved to my mother and I. She was always angry and defensive and cynical.

My father never drove a car but new about ships. He died young. I learned a lot from a friend at 17 who taught me to ride a motorbike and helped me fix them. Even still. I had one instant where an engine seized without oil and yep stopped and I fell off. Big drama got rid of it. Was getting paid heaps at the time including travelling allowance, so got another bike. Never really drove til I was in mid 20s. Felt like I was in a giant tin can.

All that stuff happens. Chalk it up to experience and dont overthink or worry about it. All we can do is our best. Today's world is very complicated. I wish it was a better place.

I have gone through a slump but going this arfternoon to a friends house for a meeting about "justice". I will try and be well behaved. They do not have mental health issues on their radar yet ... how to get people to care.

Hugs to you.

Your thinking about food is spot on. @EternalFlower Keep it simple and then you can make sound decisions.