Trying makes it worse

Thanks @outlander i did sweep today which was something, i made some progress.

There is a lot of clutter i dont know what to do with so i put some stuff in drawers but clothes are always a problem they just spread everywhere because i live alone .

I have called lifeline today but just didnt connect to the person who kept asking me throughout the convo how safe i was and i got scared they would call the police.

I dont know how next week will go.

I may go to hospital, or hold out. I am in pain and it feels unfair how i am always made to feel like my needs arent inportant, the help is so inconsistent from the mental health team @Appleblossom @Thyme @TideisTurning @TAB @RGB @

sorry to hear things not good @EternalFlower hope you can get some relief

Beaumaris Foreshore

My brother and I had a rare day out on a fishing boat there as kids.

@EternalFlower

Been gardening and looking at Clarice Beckett catalogue for calm. There is a limit to what mental health services can do. I am not always sure hospital is the best place for mental health issues. I know it is very hard being in pain. I can only offer words and pictures on a screen. Keep finding activities that are meaningful ... whether it is books or art or coffee shops. Whatever speaks to you. Even try something new with NDIS. Aloneness can be so hard. I am an always yearning type. I do not wear my solitude as an antisocial type, but there can be goodness in solitude. The world can be hard and overwhelming.

Gentle Hugs

Hello @outlander @Shaz51 @chibam @TAB

Hi ...... @Appleblossom thx for the tag ..found music for my mood, well sympbiotic I guess ..doing Sunday Afternoon with a few nings and Howlin' Wolf ... been a while ...

https://youtu.be/Ay_7JdMjeCE

Love me a bit of Blues .... raw ... before Soul ... but there is place for it all ...in my book @TAB @EternalFlower

@Bunniekins loves her Hot chocolate etc ok @Appleblossom

https://youtu.be/iqR4CZj0mJQ

https://youtu.be/PufNx9X-lsc

Neneh Cherrry - cool! @TAB u have an artistic eye, do u write/paint/music make? Thanks for the share

I love that @Appleblossom all music has a place ♥️ love that u like blues as well as soul. All music has a value and moment.

I got through my weekend. Did the dishes and put some thin but also did some nice stuff for myself.

I think ur onto something how the mental health system has limits of what they can do.

I am still processing and traumatised by the last few weeks trying to get help for myself and getting rejected repeatedly

I probably have BPD on my notes even though i was x3 assessed to have a diff diagnosis, because i fit some of the criteria....so its probably stigma and just being poor that i cant get in anywhere for services now.

I did not know the reference u mentioned, apple, a singer?