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Trying makes it worse

Trying makes it worse

Hi,

I'm EternalFlower and I've been feeling completely overwhelmed, sad, and pessimistic.

I've tried and been a responsible patient and person, reaching out to various services when I started feeling scarily anxious and suicidal, 2 years back..

My Dr is new, a young guy who regularly admits he's inexperienced, and aside from some good jokes, he actually does very little

I notice how easy it is to blame myself that I don't feel better, a total shame spiral, but I wander if my treatments just are bad....

I wanted to chat and hear anyone and hope I can use this space to help not feel so alone.

Thanks xxx EternalFlower

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Hello and hugs @maddison , @EternalFlower , @Appleblossom , @Former-Member , @tyme 🙃❤

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@EternalFlower Thinking of you.

@maddison They are not my pictures, probably oils, my uncle painted in oils. They are from artstack. Looking at them and thinking about art is calming for me, maybe because it is less verbal or mathy or reading music dots. Good for my over busy brain, reduces headaches, still looking but not over processing.

Hey @Shaz51 @Former-Member@tyme

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No words upset me at all lovely @Appleblossom ! Hi @maddison @Former-Member @tyme @Shaz51

I'm here in hospital ...have been granted leave on my own, been out and about. Also socialising more since nightmare man had gone.

I love love love that song @maddison wow have not felt connected to music for ages ...and that just gave me the chills .

They have been trying to get me examined because of sh like to see that I'm not hurt but I've been saying no. So they write in refusing and try and force me. Really it's just not requiring that attention.

Have met a nice man who loves books which is nice and politics.

Food has been a bit shit.

Good luck for confrontation tomorrow @Appleblossom

You've got this !

Hope ur feeling ok x

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Really Good to hear from you @EternalFlower

I was a little worried but so glad that you have been busy doing social and pleasant stuff.

Its late and I have to go to bed, but .... hmmmm .... met a nice man huh! ... no pressure.lol

Thanks for remembering my challenge tmrw.

Hugs Apple

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Yay @EternalFlower 💜💙

Finished my project🌏

Watching ep 3 of ahs. I'm not liking it as much as EPs 1&2.

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EP 4 was really really good @EternalFlower ep 3 was too loud & dull. Series do that tho. Start off good, then lull, then get better again.

I'm so proud that gay culture is being exposed & celebrated so hugely in this series. What a breakthrough!

Anyway, perhaps you might like this thread

https://saneforums.org/t5/Social-Spaces/The-Ice-Memery/td-p/1117393

Are you a meme person? They are funny & relaxing. A bit mindless but I like them now & then.

Please add, if you are interested or know of any good ones.

xx

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Hugs @maddison , @EternalFlower , @Appleblossom , ❤❤

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Hi @maddison I've watched up to 4...the tone was interesting...it is good ! I think it is maybe different to previous ahs but tbh I like it better. I find it easier to follow thab the others .

Ryan Murphy is amazing. Even his bad stuff is good !!

I have been on some leave so got to exit hospital. My nurse told me ppl overlook me because I'm so smiley and seem well....I mean...hm...

@Appleblossom hope went ok today? Nice I have friend here now to talk to and ppl certainly do hook up here but I cannot haha. I never want to exchange numbers because it feels so hectic. Everyone does, though.

Much love @Shaz51

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Good to read U finished ur project @maddison

No worries @Appleblossom

I'm tired but restless here. Not sleeping well but heavily medicated...

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Hi all and good morning

Waking up here in hospital they are calling people to eat breakfast and wake up

I had a rough night barely sleeping

Am reading a book in main areas which is peaceful, I just xit in the little common area with book , it's like a little bubble around me.

It is interesting talking to some ppl and hearing their experiences with the hospital and they de the same as mine

One nurse fell asleep while consulting with me...someone told me thF she's heard that from many other ppl. And for some reason it's young women he falls asleep on?

At least it's not my imagining!

Good morning all @Appleblossom @@Shaz51 @maddison @Former-Member

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