Scared again

I feel very weird today. I am not really sure what is going on tbh I just feel really confused but like all day and I tried to sleep it off but I felt worse when I woke up,

i stupidly tried to call a helpline again and it again made me feel worse they just kept telling me again how they cant help me idk why i even bothered it was dumb there is no point trying anyway. i am such an idiot.

@Eden1919, reaching out for support wasn't stupid and makes you no idiot. Being willing to be vulnerable and seeking help takes courage.

@simplesymbol but it made things a lot worse and now I feel really terrible.

Am sorry you are feeling horrible @Eden1919. If you feel like you need to unpack this, perhaps one of the helplines below could help. Hopefully none of them include the one that said they couldn't help you. Being told by a helpline that they can't help could be an overwhelming experience. Let us know how you go?

Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

Hi @Eden1919,

Thinking of you and all you are going through. It seems like you are having some overwhelming emotions - feeling really scared and confused. It sounds like your psychologist is taking you seriously by offering you extra support. I know it is hard when you feel like she is ignoring some of your wishes, but at least she is being honest in telling you what she is doing and doesn't seem to be going behind your back. I think you are doing really well to have these detailed conversations with your psychologist and opening up about what is happening for you and how you would like her to respond. It is great that you advocate for things you want or don't want to be done.

You have mentioned how disappointed you have been that the helplines haven't been able to help you. But remember it is not your fault if they can't help you, nor does it mean you have made a mistake to try. We often want someone else to be able to talk through issues with & it can be really frustrating when they don't seem to understand what you are telling them. I found it could help me if I asked them at the start of the conversation if they had any understanding of the major issues I was calling about. Eg I might say "Do you know what it is like to be scared that people are going to hurt you?" Then if they respond in a helpful way I can start to tell my story, but if unhelpful response I haven't wasted my time and emotional energy on someone who won't understand.

@Historylover & @Eden1919

I have also struggled with managing mental health challenges while studying. I don't have any magic solutions - but I think it helped to be kind to myself. I really wanted to keep pushing through my study as it was something I wanted to achieve. But I realised that by keeping on pushing through I was putting too much pressure on myself and that was making me even more anxious and stressed. When I made the decision to reduce my study load from 4 subjects to 2 and later to 1, it reduced my stress and I felt I was actually able to make progress with 1 subject rather than feel a failure at all 4. Sometimes I made the difficult decision to take a break from my studies for a bit to work on my wellbeing before I was ready to return to study. I found the mental health supports at uni were also good - and had regular contact with one of the uni's wellbeing advisors who I would talk to about how my mental health struggles were affecting my study and she would offer to talk to the course-co-ordinators for whatever I needed to support me. That was invaluable for me as when I struggled most I was unable to advocate for myself I had previously just given up and failed. What works for helping you with your uni studies?

well @simplesymbol i tried a different helpline and it made things yet again even worse biggest mistake ever i am done i give up.

@CrazyChick thank you for taking the time to reply i dont have any suggestions for studying atm because i am failing that too.

@moxi there will be no next time i am done with it all.

I've sent you an email, @Eden1919

Would you be okay to touch base with me there?