Hi @Delicatessen
It’s so lovely to hear from you 💜
Thank you so much for your beautiful words and for sharing this part of your life with me 💜
I just wanted to start by saying that I’m so deeply sorry for the amount of time that it has taken for me to be able to reach back to you 💜
A few months ago in April, everything suddenly came crashing down around me and I found myself in a really dark place. At first, I thought that a few weeks would be enough time for me to be able to work through things. However, it wasn’t long before I realised that I’d completely misjudged the situation and that it was going to take me so much longer to be able to work through everything that was happening for me. Although I still have my good and not so good days, I’m definitely in a much better place than I was a few months ago and as such, today is my first day back to the forums 💜
I absolutely love listening to your adventures 😊 You have such a beautiful way of describing your experiences and as I listen to your words, the most vibrant and stunning images appear in my mind - a little bit like scenes from a movie 💜
Although I’ve never travelled to New Zealand, a friend of mine use to visit on a fairly regular basis and just from looking at her photographs and listening to some of her adventures, there seems to be some spectacular places to visit!
The enchanted forest sounds exactly that and just seeing the trees framed in clouds would feel magical in itself! Just from how you described this moment, it sounds as though there was an incredibly intimate connection between you and nature and I would imagine that there are times when finding the words to capture the depth of your experiences would be incredibly difficult 💜
Thank you so much for sharing your memory of the snow with me 💜 I’ve never camped on snow, but it would certainly not be without some challenges and you would have definitely been frozen!
Although it’s been many years since I’ve spent some time in a cold climate, I can still remember the biting icy winds and how the cold just seemed to penetrate every bone in my body - despite the fact that I was completely decked out in my woollens and my mum placed pieces of kitchen foil in the bottom of my boots to insulate my little feet against the cold 🤣
As I continued to listen to this part of your story, I felt really intrigued when you shared ‘I share the details of my exploits with very few as it’s not always a positive experience for me.’
I would really love to understand this part of your experience (only if this feels comfortable for you 💜) and as such, I just ever so gently wondered if this is in relation to how people respond to you when you share this part of your life with them? Or if sharing these parts of your life raises some really difficult thoughts and feelings, which means that sharing isn’t always a positive experience for you? Or perhaps this means something else?
I could really relate to this part of your story and there have been numerous times in my life when mastering progressively more difficult challenges has left me feeling somewhat invincible! The sense of euphoria that I felt as a result of my triumphs was incredibly intoxicating and as such, I began to actively seek out opportunities that would enable me to re-create these feelings!
I really loved it when you shared, ‘I’m starting to believe that it’s not unexpected for me to need to walk - I think now that the Elder might have just been stating the obvious!’ As I reflected on your words, I couldn’t help but feel as though perhaps you’re starting to connect with some different parts of yourself and that what the Elder said has really resonated with you 💜
Oh wow! I’ve never been scuba diving (but just from what I’ve seen in movies and documentaries) I think that it would be absolutely breath taking! Not only because of the great expanse of the ocean and the diversity of marine life, but also because it would be such a surreal and unique experience - almost as though you’re exploring a sacred part of the world that’s there just for you 💜
I never tire of listening to all of the different parts of your story and as such, I just ever so gently wanted to reassure you that you’re always more than welcome to share any experiences that feel safe and comfortable for you 💜
It's always so lovely to be able to connect with you 💜
Take kind and gentle care of yourself 💜
ShiningStar 💜