Welcome! Introduce yourself here 🙂

Welcome @Former-Member ,

Great you could join us.

What are some things you enjoy doing? Is there something you are hoping to get from these forums?

We look forward to hearing from you.

tyme

Hey @Hyperballad ,

I'm sorry to hear that you don't have many friends or family to talk to. It must be a lonely journey.

Could neurodiversity not only be different but better?

People have often asked if I'm neurospicy lol. I have to admit I have 'unique' ways, but at the same time, I don't see why I should do things the same way as everyone else!

Yet I hear you when it comes to stigma and discrimination. It's hard. It's like when someone says they are 'autistic', people automatically categorise them into some anti-social case, when the truth is, they really want to socialise and have friends!

Whatever it may be, please know you are not alone @Hyperballad

Thanks @tyme,

That is a tough question haha.

I enjoy playing guitar, singing, song writing, jogging, spending time around the ocean and spending time with good friends and those close to me.

I don't really know exactly what I'm looking for.

I suppose a safe space to share my experiences while also learning from the experiences of others?

Maybe, most of all, I'm just trying to find a way to accept myself.

It's been very tough to accept the diagnosis.

Not necessarily because of anosognosia.

I'm actually often told I have really good insight by health care professionals.

I think I don't accept myself because, growing up, I somehow obtained very many stigmatising and discriminating beliefs regarding mental illness.

I'm much better with that stuff now.

I'm also really stable which is great.

Holistically, my wellbeing is actually pretty good.

I was kinda once told by a psychiatrist that I've "won the world's worst lottery."

I've also been told that karma exists.

I don't know if either are true.

But if both are, and every action has an equal and opposite reaction, I guess my future should be pretty bright haha.

So that's pretty neat.

Anyway, that's me 🙂

Love it @Former-Member !

Love the way you have framed it "won the world's worst lottery".

It sure does sound like you have much insight into what's going on for you.

For me, these forums really helped me in my recovery journey. By sharing my experiences and supporting others, I found I actually grew from it.

Guitar, song writing is pretty awesome 🙂 I tried playing the guitar. I found extremely difficult. I prefer piano, brass, double base instruments... I just can't seem to get my fingers around the different chords of a guitar. I can't do violin and its family of instruments either.... it's the fingering I struggle with.

I admire the talent of those who can play these instruments though.

Thank you! 😁

It's pretty reassuring to hear that the forums have been helpful and that it's helped you grow.

Growth is really important to me so hopefully I'll have the same experience.

Yeah though, guitar can definitely be a tough instrument.

I must say though, it's impressive that you can play so many.

I can barely play piano, and while I can play a bass guitar, it's basically just guitar with the first 4 strings.

Yes we are in contact. He is very polite and nice just another person. Drugs. Ave him flat lined.
but I have now been left with terrible depression a year on from this shock.
a be kind friend walks with me in this but she lives overseas.

Hey @Bella61 ,

That sounds so tough. @Bella61 Am I right in saying that he left in order to protect you from feeling hurt at seeing him the way he is?

Would you consider seeing your dr about how you have been feeling over the past year? At this time, they may want to keep an eye on the depression.

Are you able to talk to him at all?

I just want to share a little from my life. It's different to yours, but I'm not sure if there are any similarities. I removed myself from my family when my mental health was at its worst. I cut them off completely and didnt' talk to them. I didn't see them for years. Why? Not because I hated them, but because I couldn't bear letting them see me the way I was.

When the time came, I reconnected with them, and things are definitely much better. But all those years I didn't talk to them, I wonder if they felt the same as you?

There is hope @Bella61 . Cling to that hope.

I’m just wondering if you are a real person or a BOT?

Hi - I am 47 year old mother to 2 girls - now 13 and 9 and have struggled with BPD and anxiety from age 23. I am currently trying to do DBT program, see my psychiatrist and a psychologist for support. I always find January or changes with routine the hardest and I have had to have an inpatient admission into a clinic and hold off the DBT Program as it runs as outpatient only. I am an intelligent, caring and kind person when I am well, and managed to hold a job as a Careers Adviser in university part time for 14 years, study and complete a full commerce law degree and teaching degree in my early life before having a family.

I feel for all those on this forum with BPD and I also feel relief there is a community of people who struggle to manage their emotions and this challenging disorder.

Even with my condition and how I am triggered at home, my husband has been supportive and I get up and go home from inpatient care to be there while they get ready for school. I try to be a presence even in the background when I am really unbalanced or experiencing an episode of emotional dysregulation.

Today has been a hard day as I did the morning and helped my 9 year old going into a new school in Year 5 but had to give in and rest at the clinic. I want to do evenings as well but it is too exhausting right now and my medication is being reviewed. I just wanted to say hello and to acknowledge other parents who are also struggling with BPD 😔 we are all trying our best and that's all we can do 🙏

Hello @CRyan, Welcome to the community, and thanks for sharing! You sound both intelligent, caring, and super resourceful. Thanks for sharing your work and study accomplishments! Parenting and living with BPD must be tough, but you are doing an amazing job!

The DBT program will be there for you when you are ready; it sounds like you need that inpatient support at the moment. You'll get back to it. I am glad to hear that you have a strong support network around you, and I am sure that will help you on your recovery journey!

I'm super impressed that you are showing up to the best of your ability for your kids while in inpatient care! You can only do what you can, and you are doing your best, always!

A big welcome again, and I hope that you can connect with other parents who are also living with BPD here ❤️