why am i like this

Seems like there's a lot going on there @Eden1919 . I totally hear you.

How about focussing on ONE thing at a time? Would that help?

What are some things that you enjoy doing in your spare time?

tyme

@tyme i cant focus full stop like i try to and then i end up doing like 7 other things before i come back to the thing i started and realise i had been doing other thing and hadnt noticed and yeah idk i just cant focus um spare time idk depends on the day it really does change a lot well not alot because there are somet things i like all the time but then again like idk i cant seem to do one thing for very long right now like i cant even listen to a whole song and i mean ususally music is my go to but it isnt working rignt now and and i dont feel like doing art right now and i tried watching hells kitchen nd watching tiktoks even though i dont really like tiktok i dont even have it i was watching these on youtube and i tried talking to my mum on the phone and i tried playing games and watching netflix and yeah idnk nothing is helping right now.

Hello @Eden1919 I hear you just our Family @tyme

one thing at a time is sensitive and sensible.

however, don’t be hard on yourself, your full of life, living your life, engaging with everything thrown at you and your taking on life for frontal, so enjoy the ride, but personally try and write in your Journal it will help you remember when life and what we all do gets too much.

Im like you in way, the Clive Palmer adds are ridiculous, and some

songs they don’t deserve any more of attention for more than a moment anyway, but I have learnt the long way round, we are better off doing one thing at a time multitasking is not the go in 2022, there is no filter anymore in this day and age, it’s not productive anymore, we get too much done but at the end of the going 100 miles an hour a day, we get not much done and end up in square one. So pace yourself my friend, put your priorities in your journal, back to your basics, it’s what I do. Ie Eat my meals are in my plans. My wash my body grooming, and sleep 🛌 make your plan Sleep is supposed to be one third of our life. There is heaps of ideas on the Sane web site for all of life balances and it’s in real life time, everything you have typed out every subject there is an answer from real people on here, personally I would turn the TV off and just concentrate on tomorrow, and if you don’t sleep tonight it’s OK, you will tomorrow night. Please play on this forum have a read of what others do and just be kind to yourself your not alone your with your Forumite Family 👍

@Eden1919 I'm glad you can get your 'scream' out here...I hear you.

oh, yeah, I ended up on a proper tik tok thread not too long ago. It was surreal hearing the same music track over and over again. I don't know i I want to understand tic tok.

Thinking about doing more old fashioned, music listening. Album at a time, even. Those were the days. Can be again. Just need to orchestrate my impulses enough. Then the tunes can take over.

You are on such a layered journey of discovery @Eden1919 . Please accept my respect and my sympathies.

thank you all right now (and fingers crossed it stays this way for at least the next hour) i am feeling a little calmer although i am doubtful it will last very long as last night was another night of screaming well not literally but at least internal screaming anyway i am trying very hard to keep it together but i am struggling a lot with not bothering people. i am still not sleeping either it has been weeks and weeks since i have slept properly and everyone just keeps saying you will crash eventually but it isnt happening and i am not sure it will anytime soon. i am not sure when i will next hear from my case manager but i am nervous about it. i am nervous about a lot of things actually but anyway for now i am just trying to stay as calm as possible.

@Eden1919

It is great that you are feeling a little calmer at the moment. Even if it doesn't last long, every bit of calmness is welcome.

Good luck with your case manager. I hope they are in contact with you soon and can help you to achieve the calmness you are seeking.

It is hard when thoughts are going so fast making in hard to concentrate on things. And even harder when your usual strategies are not working. My psychologist taught me that when I get really stressed and find it hard to think clearly and concentrate that most strategies won't work for me - except for the really basic ones like breathing and noticing senses. For me one of the best grounding strategies is to cuddle my dog - feeling her warm soft fur, hearing her little sleeping noises, finding different shaped spots on her skin, smelling the scent of cut grass on her paws, and trying to match her slow calm breaths with my own. I hope you can find an effective grounding strategy or several.

Sending calming thoughts...

@CrazyChick thanks

I am really nervous today and idk what to do about it and idk everything is very messy right now.

@Eden1919

Your usual strategies might not be working well at the moment, but even if they help occupy you for a little bit that can help get you through till things improve. A little music, your favourite shows, something you like to eat, walking around the house/garden, tea/coffee/drink of choice, reading/posting on forums, meditation or whatever your strategies are.

Do you have someone who knows you well - family/friend/forum friend who could help you get through this? They could remind you of what has helped in the past that you might be able to try. And help distract you from your anxiety.

@CrazyChick I am trying to just listen to music and watch funny youtube videos but idk it isnt helping really. and no i dont have anyone i live alone.

I saw my psychologist and she said she was worried and that i was jumbled now i just feel like crying idk everything is a mess.