New meds making me feel sick

Hi @utopia

Hope you had a good night sleep. I didn't do my mindfulness meditation last night, i had a terrible migraine and as soon as my head hit the pillow i was asleep.

I feel so horrible at the moment, I cancelled my personal training session on Monday as I didn't have enough money to go. But now i feel horrible, I feel hopeless that i can't even achieve a simple thing like go to the gym. And do you think i did any of the things he told me to do at home - no.

My head is still hurting, yesterday I took mersyndol and my migraine tablet. I think i am more emotional at the moment because of my headache. i saw my GP yesterday and he could tell i wasn't good, i was crying and holding my head, even my eye was sore. He told me to stop my AD for three days and see how I feel without them. He seems to think it is the AD that has escalated my headaches and migraines. And if they are then he says i will need to try something else. Great, i really don't want that.

@utopia I am really angry with my psych. I phoned on Monday to leave a message with the receptionist to tell him that i am not feeling good with my headaches. I thought he needs to know. she said he would get back to me on Tuesday as he doesn't work mondays. But yesterday i waited all day and no phone call.

so you can imagine how angry i was and still am. In my head i thought f.... you i am stopping everything; I'll show you how bad i feel. it was like i had to get back at him.

I don't know what to do anymore. i am so emotional; i am sick of trying different tablets.

I am sorry for ranting, i always rant and never ask about others. i sometimes feel like a real cow for not talking to others on here.

i understand if no one wants to reply to me; i feel that i am on here all the time. maybe i should just go away forever because i donm't really know what to do anymore.

Hi @utopia

thankyou so much for caring. I feel that I don't have many that do care. I feel hopeless and helpless at the moment. I sometimes get so angry that I rant and rave and think there are others on here who have much more issues than me, so i shouldn't complain.

I have just finished dinner (hubby bought cooked chicken and chips) and I made a nice salad. I am going to continue knitting the baby blanket. I don't have any self confidence or feel that i am strong. I can't see that i am strong. thank you so much for your kind comments, i truly appreciate everything you say.

I will read through some of your responses to me while you are not on here. I am sending you lots of hugs and love. You are such a caring and inspirational person.

Pls take care, i will be thinking of you while you're not on here.

Thanking you for checking in on me. And don't worry I will not run away, even though at times it seems much easier. xxxooo

Today was not a good day at work. Was talking to a customer who her parents died not long ago. she told me she feels lonely and is grieving. While talking to her I started to cry and I told her that my parents don't talk to me and I am sort of grieving but in a different way to her. She gave me a hug and she said i am really strong. But I disagree that i am strong.

I feel that now my meds are wearing off and I am an emotional; i will not get better because of my emotions.