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MDTSenior Contributor07 Jan 2022, 10:23 pm AEDT

2022

This year will be different to last

I have some plans in the making and a lot will happen and change.

I nearly had a panic attack tonight but avoided it entirely by thinking through what needed to be done in the immediate future. So I did exactly what I knew I needed to. And left it there.

I also fixed my mattress for a temp fix before I get the new one.

There's always so much on my mind. So much I want and need.

But I know the strides I made last year will push me forward.

Just need to set a routine and be stringent. But also not hard on myself.

Its hard for me socially atm so I take what I can.

Dating - I have no idea and to be honest I'm okay with that. I have some apps but I will ween myself away from it. I'm open minded enough. Thatll do for now.

Now it's bed time.

Talk tomorrow

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Unknown userMember15 Jan 2022, 7:50 am AEDT

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Hey @MDT @hope you’re feeling a bit better today at least. Any plans today?

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MDTSenior Contributor15 Jan 2022, 10:34 am AEDT

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Hey @Former-Member
Thanks dude

I am feeling refreshed after my sleep. Just processing a lot after yestersays wedding. What struck me was the ceremony and glitz of the catholic tradition
I don't believe in any of it. But I do appreciate that ots what my friend wanted.
Tbh I don't think I'll see her again. And it was bitter-sweet because it was good to see her happy but kinda yuck for me coz it reminded me that more and more people are going off on their own journey. I felt like I was going in circles.

Strange reaction isn't it?

I have made a clean sweep with matches on apps. Just said " hey look things are sh1tty atm and I can tell you're a nice person but I need to leave this app and I don't wanna ghost you. All the best I hope you find what you're looking for"
I felt better saying that. Maybe I'll go back to it. Who knows.

Right now I need to do some more deep digging into my psyche and study more on personality.

Today - no plans
Haven't had plans on a Saturday for a while haha. Don't know many people anymore. I'm catching up with a uni friend tomorrow and was telling him where I'm at so I'm expecting it to be raw and honest which will be refreshing.

Gonna go get some coffee and bacon I think. My sister had her bday yesterday. We are having dinner out.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor15 Jan 2022, 10:42 am AEDT

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Hey @MDT

Keep hanging in there.

Your thoughfulness is so well articulated, there ought to be someone out there for you to connect with ... one day ....

@wellwellwellnez Good luck ... love your posts ...

Religion and spirituality and therapy all seem wrapped up with overlapping aaspects ... I have tried a lot of all of them ... advantage of getting on ...

Keeps me in touch with younger people to post here.

Cheers and thanks

Apple

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Unknown userMember15 Jan 2022, 10:43 am AEDT

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All good @MDT @that’s pretty disappointing about the wedding, they are supposed to be joyous times for the guests too.. and you have to deal with yourself first, like I am to find happiness once again.

good luck with your friend tomorrow hope all goes well and enjoy your dinner…

im off to play cricket today hoping it’s not going to rain though

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MDTSenior Contributor15 Jan 2022, 11:01 am AEDT

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Not to sound arrogant but I defs agree with you @Appleblossom

The issue I am having is direction and not being a fake

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MDTSenior Contributor15 Jan 2022, 11:02 am AEDT

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Enjoy @Former-Member
I am thinking of community sport as an outlet too.
But at this stage I still fake if I did it... weird right?

Have a good game IJM

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Unknown userMember15 Jan 2022, 10:10 pm AEDT

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My best season was when I was depressed @MDT

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MDTSenior Contributor16 Jan 2022, 12:07 am AEDT

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I see @Former-Member
Hope you hit em good today dude
Off to bed here. Cya

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MDTSenior Contributor17 Jan 2022, 11:36 am AEDT

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Hey all
Another event today is pushing me towards leaving.
Something so simple that I didn't see it. Its not important but they still pull me up on it.
Seems like that's all this job is.
I was playing it cool but I really felt stupid.
Its time I think.

I'll be having a chat with my mentor about it tonight.

Maybe 3 years ago when I desperately needed money I was forcing myself to learn new things and get a job. Thus I did.
But alas I am in this place now and its not worth it.
There is no zeal or energy in me. It sucks the joy out of me. I have no time for anything else.

Figuring it out.

@Former-Member @TAB @Smc @wellwellwellnez @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Snowie @Bunniekins

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor17 Jan 2022, 12:00 pm AEDT

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Was talking online about a couple of old managers. Some people are good managers, but many are cr ..p. Take care @MDT

Its easier getting a job from a job ... just remember.

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