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Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

Jon840Contributor08 Dec 2021, 9:24 pm AEDT

Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

C/W; suicidal ideation

I am right now in the middle of a court case which could see me tipped out of my house.

It's incredibly stressful. We are not represented by a lawyer.

This situation has been threatening all year and all year I have had extreme anxiety to the point where I often can't eat.

I am triggered out of my mind. I have a long history of suicidal ideation and the only thing that is keeping me here is my fifteen-year-old son and what it would do to him.

The first hearing of the case is on Friday. I so want to not be here but I am trying to make plans for the weekend to give me something to look forward to. This post is me trying to get through the next ten minutes, the next hour.

Oh ... and I have had many years of living with BPD. It's ruined my life in many ways ... and the person that I blame the most for the childhood emotional neglect that led to my BPD? Well ... she's the one trying to take my house from me.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor16 Dec 2021, 2:03 pm AEDT

Re: Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

Ahaha @Jon840

Good to hear you are doing better. Funny about the Delta thingummy ... My most recent set of synchronicities have been about male friendship, religion,spirituality and political activism, cant really share cos of confidentiality but it has been an interesting year ...

I stumbled on "The Artist's Way" over a decade ago in the library and it felt very good for me. I have a few different artistic practices, which I need to keep faith in, and also develop faith in me. The last is the most difficult.

Gently Bently

Apple

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NatureLoverSenior Contributor17 Dec 2021, 7:15 am AEDT

Re: Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

@Jon840 wrote:
So, to answer your question, BPDSurvivor, I’m doing ok.

Came here to check on how you were doing...glad to hear this. 🙂 @Jon840

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AussieRechargerSenior Contributor17 Dec 2021, 8:37 am AEDT

Re: Whatever Gets You Thru the Night

@Jon840

Good to hear about your outcomes and that it gives you some more time. If you feel up to it, please have a look around, as others have said, your writing style is very nice and you have a talent for communicating, you may have a skill in helping others to be able to communicate what they are feeling.

It's great to have you around @Jon840

Great work @NatureLover @Appleblossom @BPDSurvivor

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