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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Hello. I haven't posted for a while. I have wanted to offer support to others here but haven't felt able to do so. I don't know why I can't get to a better place emotionally, why I keep sliding back to feeling like it is pointless being around. I don't feel right. I feel depressed. I feel like I am never good enough.
I have missed the members here that I interacted with when I was here before, I hope you are well.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Heyyy hello @Lilly6 xoxo
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Hi @Shaz51 I have missed you! Hi also @Appleblossom @Former-Member @NatureLover @Former-Member
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Thank you @Former-Member at the moment it is 2 steps forward 1 step back or is it 1 step forward 2 steps back? I don’t know 🤷♀️ I like face to face for my regular psych appointments as I feel more able to open up and say how I am feeling and of course there are less distractions.
It is so hard. Yesterday was a better day so I know more will come. Today though was not and unhealthy thoughts came creeping in. I still think about ending things almost every single day and how I will do that but I also have tools that I can use to distract myself and remind myself of reasons to stay.
I am a work in progress.
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
@Former-Member I am struggling but safe for now, thank you. Tomorrow is another day.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Ohhh @Lilly6 , I have missed you too my friend
How are you going today xxxx
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Hi @Shaz51 today is a little better thanks xx. Hope you are doing ok too.
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Hi @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @NatureLover I hope you have had an awesome day today. 💕💕💕💕
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Lilly6Senior Contributor
Today I have been thinking about how I want to proceed with therapy. I really like my psychologist and feel we have a good therapeutic alliance but not sure how many more sessions I have before the mental health plan funded 10 sessions runs out. It is so expensive even with the plan (each session about $120) but totally unaffordable without it ($239). I am unsure how many plans you can have before Medicare refuses to fund anymore. I have looked into a spiritual type of therapy (why not can’t hurt) and that is $111 per session for 10 sessions so about the same.
Sorry, feeling morose. Don’t know what I want to do. Right now doing nothing seems good. I know therapy can only take me so far and I have to do the hard yards myself which I have definitely been doing. But I still feel no matter what I do it will never be enough and neither will I. Right now I really don’t want to do any of this anymore, why does everything have to be so tough? I know life is not meant to be easy though. 😊💕
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