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BlueBaySenior Contributor
TW
i don't want to sleep again in fear it will happen again
the attack was so real
I was so strong on my mum
our eyes reached each other's
it's too graphic to write
I hate her for what she's done
I'm not sorry for what I told her
the look in her eyes
two nights of terror nightmares
I don't know what to do
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
thank yoiu everyone for yiour kind support @Former-Member @Snowie @Appleblossom @Owlunar @oceangirl
@Owlunar i am so happy to see you on here reading, but am really sad to read on your post that you are not doing so well. i had this feeling that something seriously was wrong with you. I am praying that you will get well soon. You are in the best place my beautiful friend. I know you have know me for a long time and my story with my mum. This has really affected me today, i am so triggered.
@Former-Member i am not great. although i did push myself to go and do a meditation class and spoke to the teacher beforehand, telling her that if i cry during the session it is because of a horrible horrible nightmare last night. i explained it to her and she came over and gave me a big hug, just what i needed.
it's scared me , i know it was a nightmare, a dream, my subconscius. but can it happen in reality. this may be a dumb question.
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Without knowing the background here, one thing I can share with you is something I've learned along the way – thoughts are just thoughts, and this would apply to dreams as well, right because our dreams and nightmares are thoughts based.
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JynxModerator
@BlueBay so, so sorry to hear you had such an awful experience. Sending a million virtual hugs, but one at a time so they reach you in increments throughout the days ahead 
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
@Jynx I wanted to tag you
it was horrible
the vision is still in my head
I can still see it
Thanks for hugs xxxxx
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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor
I'm here with you @BlueBay . HUGS xoxoxo
Also @Owlunar , I too am relieved to hear from you. Take care my dear.
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
@BPDSurvivor @Jynx @Former-Member @Snowie @Snowie @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Owlunar @Emelia8 @HenryX @MDT
I emailed my psychologist this morning and told him I cried once I got in the car after my session. And hearing my results from the questionnaire was quite a shock for me.
he replied tonight and thsnked me for being so honest with how I felt. So now he understands. He wants to help me and said to book sn earlier session snd he'll discuss this nightmare in detail with me.
@BPDSurvivor this new psychologist is well known for his great DBT knowledge. Worked in a Melbourne DBT clinic for 10 years. I'm scared. Will he really help me. What if I fail?
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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor
@BlueBay , you will fail if you don't give it a try.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Hugs my sister xoxo @BlueBay ❤
Walking with you xoxo
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JynxModerator
@BlueBay one of my fav quotes (from the cartoon Adventure Time of all things lol) is 'Sucking at something is the first step to being sorta good at something.'
Failure is nought but a learning experience. And like @BPDSurvivor said, if you don't try you fail anyway. We'll be here beside you every step of the way
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BPDSurvivorSenior Contributor
Very true @Jynx ... also reminds me, 'if you've never made a mistake, you've never made anything!'
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