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A safe place to express myself
Right now I need a safe place to express myself.
I'm in a very vulnerable space so if you would like to reply I ask that you please be gentle and kind.
At around 4am I cried for a bit and I was able to finally get in touch with my feelings. I was triggered by something yesterday and I have been in a very bad space all this time. I haven't slept all night.
I cried because it's just been so hard and I have been trying so hard to look after myself.
I had arranged to pick up my bike today and now I can't go. I feel so (can't think of the word) that I'm at the mercy of my triggers. At anytime I can get hijacked into a traumatic state from the past and there is nothing I can do about it. It completely disrupts my life and stops me from doing everything.
I feel so sad and I want to cry but I can't.
I tried so hard today.