My day

I have fallen into a very deep depression and I'm in a lot of psychological pain. I will take care of myself for the rest of the evening. Right now I need 'first aid self care'.

Glad you are putting yourself first and listening to your needs @Arizona . What does your first aid self-care look like?

I didn't think I was triggered from reading the letter from my housing agency but I am. It came on slowly.

Things I achieved today...

I spoke to my therapist. I feel like I'm holding myself back lately with my therapist, like I'm not being myself with her. I don't know why.

I did three ten minute mindfulness meditations where I focused on my breathing.

I opened my Thich Nhat Hanh pocket book to any page and read it. It was about the mindfulness of consumption, which is about how we consume things to avoid negative or painful feelings.

I made a big salad for dinner. It was like a salade niçoise, but I had leafy salad mix, lightly steamed asparagus, cherry tomatoes, baby red potatoes, red onion, tuna and a honey and mustard dressing.

I ate healthy food all day.

I drank 4 glasses of water and 4 cups of tea.

I took my vitamins and antidepressants.

I took some Blackmores Valerian Forte.

I had cuddles with my Pug.

I'm in bed with my Pug, and my hot water bottle under my feet, and I'm drinking a cup of tea.

I'm too tired to have a shower. I will just have one tomorrow.

I'm going to listen to my audio book The Body Keeps the Score.

I haven't been able to sleep. I'm in a terrible state of anxiety and trauma and I don't know what to do. I have been lying in bed awake and frozen with fear for hours.

I don't know how to get myself out of this situation with my housing agency. I cried but only for a bit. I can't feel or express my emotions.