Hi people!

Hi guys,

I am new here. I was too lonely and decided to look for a place to connect and here i am. It's been years that i been single and this lockdown made it harder to get back to relationship matter. I been feeling down and losing track of day and night. Sometime it's just so hard to deal with myself, spending time alone become harder and harder every second passes. I remember feeling that the lonely winter nights were seem will never be over. Today is sunny and bright in the Melbourne city and i went out to the park but the feeling inside is still the same. Sometime feel like it's just too much. Just living and breathing feel like a misery. Movies, tv shows and games just don't satisfied me anymore. Everything seem so pointless yet the time is moving on but i can't keep up. I don't know what i want or what i need anymore. I don't know what i should expect from this forum but not sure what will suprise me. I would love some raw excitment and happiness. I wonder what is it like to feel alive and hopeful. Have i really felt that before? I can't remember the feeling.