I'm in a really bad way

I called Lifeline but they weren't helpful. I'm so lonely. I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm really at my lowest.

Okay, I'm going to have a glass of water and feed my Pug, and then I will have a shower.

I took my Pug for a walk. I could because it's such a warm night.

I opened up the windows and let some fresh air into the house. I have been stuck in here for days.

I'm going to see if I can find something to eat now and then I will have a shower.

I'm so lonely and sad.

I made a salade niçoise. I didn't have any green beans so I used asparagus. I didn't really like it. I think I'm sick of salade niçoise.

I put a treatment in my hair and had a shower. I might watch one of Ediya's Reiki videos now.

My goals for today are:

Go to the supermarket.

Take my Pug for a walk.

Feed my Pug.

Do my affirmation in the mirror.

Make chilli beef.

Make vanilla chai.

Drink water

Have a shower.

Take my vitamins and antidepressants.

Put the recycling bin out.

Hey @Arizona

I just logged in and saw your posts.

Its hard when we are on our own. The day in day out monotony can really get me down. You actually do a lot of good self care, and so a day here and there is not that big an issue. Go easy on yourself. We cant be perfectionist in "care". It is a much more organic and human process, of accepting the "warts and all" of our inner and outer lives.

Hope your pug enjoys his walk. He is lucky to get them. I have had to use the "essentials" as a guide in life to get my butt moving. Yep water and for human and dog.

I wondered why you chose Arizona for your new name?

Re time lag in responses, I log on and off at random times, as I need to get off puta more. Probably same for others.

Take Care

Apple

Sorry to hear your situation, thanks for sharing. I am in bad situation too, but just got to cope as best I can day by day, no one to look out for me. Just got to accept my situation. Regards, Owen.

@Arizona @Owen45 yes day by day we move forward. I feel for your struggle right now, you're doing it tough. So glad you have your faithful pug @Arizona I hope your supermarket shop includes a treat or two for them.. I lost a cat and the survivor is having some behavioural issues, our furbabies pick up on things. And glad you have your piano @Owen45 .

I hope you can breath some light into the afternoon and know that someone cares.

Dimity

Hi @Appleblossom ❤

Yes it is hard being on your own. I talk to myself all day like I have Alzheimer's. I'm lucky to have my Pug with me. He has just joined me for a cuddle.

Yes I agree: doing the basic essentials like going to the supermarket, showering, and walking my Pug makes a difference to my wellbeing.

I'm trying to limit my time online too.

I did my affirmation in the mirror.

I went to the supermarket.

I bought my favourite organic chocolate.

I fed my Pug.

I made a cream cheese dip with onion and chives.

I made vanilla chai.

I put on a load of washing and hung it out.

I've been drinking water.

I took my vitamins.

"I love and accept myself exactly as I am."

Also, I listened to one of Ediya's ASMR videos last night before I went to bed and I slept really well. I haven't slept well in ages.

It was this one:

https://youtu.be/TS8WieldiW4